Just think for a moment about the fact that every single person is a person.
You can talk to any of them and they will talk back and every one of them will have something different to say. They’re all as complex as you are, and you’re probably more complex than you realize. Each of them is full of their own questions and hypocrisies and delightful twists and turns. There’s a whole world hidden inside every skull.
Anyways, hello everyone :) Been very busy with uni lately thus explained my absence in blogging. Able to keep myself busy (meaning in weekends) so far successfully to avoid overthinking about stupid things, which I unrelentingly always end up to do so and regretted.
I guess I could say that I was a very technology-person/social-media-addict aka I would spend on my phone 24-7 like no jokes. But now I've detached myself with phone and with social media related apps, and in exchange, been meeting, chatting and chilling with new people :) I'm so glad I chose that... as I've been happier (I got it emphasized to me a lot from people around me hmm maybe it is in fact, true) since I don't have a gazillion changing feelings every minute or so in replying to people's messages (not that I don't like to but sometimes I really can't be bother/not feel like it). My life has been better so far (really! for those who're persistently asking/checking). I wasn't so well, you know at the first week but hey, this is life. Then I got sick for a week and a bit. (karma right there for me being a complete bitch x.x) I won't say I'm fully recovered because I'm actually not but I'm getting better, I just wish my coughing goes away, been taking rikodeine and I hate cough liquid medicine :(
To be honest though, sometimes, I get into this shitty-mood and just shut everyone off but ay, I'm still here :)
Not just that, I also no longer feel the intense desire to cling to or to reach out to that person.
I came across this quote few days ago:

"...'Dont marry an orange and expect him to turn into an apple.' If you want an orange, great. If not, put him back in the proverbial fruit bowl for someone else to enjoy and move on."

― Amy E. Spiegel, Letting Go of Perfect: Women, Expectations, and Authenticity

I shall leave youse all with the quote... before I bore you any further, here's what I've been participating lately haha: http://tap.unicefusa.org/  It's really cool! If you do have the time, you should try it out yourself! It's basically for every 10 minutes you don't touch your phone, you help to give clean water to children in need! So the longer you don't touch your phone, you get to help more! Pretty cool isn't it? :D GOGOGOGO haha~

Have a fabulous soon-to-be april week! Enjoy today as well as it's the last day of March~

Catcha all next time, whenever that may be! :)

Love,
Velene xoxo

I wrote you a letter...

.... only to conclude that I won’t be giving it to you. My heart poured out into a couple sheets of paper, that you will never receive. I without any hesitation drew flame to the past. I watched it burn centimetre by centimetre. The auburn glow grew and engulfed everything. Every untainted word in my memory inscribed unto flammable squares. The wind is going to blow it into the universe and from then on, it is going to vanish into dust. Just like our love.

By putting on a mask, I made myself into a complete bitch back then. Regretted but can't do jack shit now.
So let's pop the pills to numb it all out!!

It's already been a month and a half since it's officially over (or should I say it had been two weeks since we went back to square one as strangers), it just sucks because I’m still in the middle of getting over you. I still have feelings for you, but I’m slowly losing them. Because anything can bring those feelings back, when I hear a song that reminds me of you or see a picture. But there’s days where I feel nothing toward you, I think I’m finally over you, but I see something and realise those feelings never left. I hate this middle feeling. How long is it gonna take to get over this middle feeling?

Oh yeah, and on the point of this person (I'm getting numerous messages about him, I'm not going to (ever) leak out who he is/what's his name/where's he from etc etc [for those people who are unaware of this, if you read several of my posts recently, I kept on referring to someone as "you"], so please drop the persistent questioning in my inbox.... it's not that I aint a bitch enough to release his deets and talk about him behind his back, but I just see that there's no point of telling you guys because here is a public template and I'm pretty sure "that person" won't want his name drifting around... afterall.. we're now strangers.

Anyways..

You were just another lesson learned. You taught me what love felt like. You showed me how to hold on to it, but you also showed me how it felt to lose it. You showed me who I wanted in life, but then you also showed me who I wasn’t. You then drew a line, but you weren’t mine to begin with and not mine to end with. Looking right then and there, you were everything I wanted. Maybe because you were my first. Maybe because it was just thoughts. Then you were someone I didn’t like. You got inside my head and then you let me leave and wish I’d stay. Glancing back, I tried not to regret it and looked at it as an adventure.

Before I end, I have already settled myself to an agreement that this will be the last post ever on him. It is really the time I move on, physically and mentally. Hence, for my future posts, I will focus more on my daily personal life, and no more mentioning of him. He's now the past. 
Time to open a new chapter~

PS. I mostly update on my instagram - @veleneeee since I don't really have much time to blog here :) It's like my instagram now becomes my daily pic blog haha X) for eg. I wrote so much for a pic post just then.... link's HERE if you wanna check it out :) it briefly and vaguely described my week..

Love,
Velene

I used to think that I was just not good enough but then I realised that it wasn't it. The fact that if I was or wasn't good enough doesn't matter, because everyone has their own perspective about others; different opinions and scales. Maybe I was just not the shining star in your eyes and I guess that you just weren't mine either. You definitely caught my eye, but you just weren't meant to stay. So let me be thankful that I've met someone great like you. Even though you’re now my past, you left me a great memory and a remarkable lesson. Thanks the moments of laughter we had together.
Best of luck to both of us!

I don’t know which is worst. Not being able to press delete on somebody’s contact in your phone, or realising that there’s no point of deleting them, because you remember their number by heart.

Finally had a proper YOP catchup! :) Check out HERE for more! xx

(: Quick drop by~

Oh why hello there everyoneee! :D 

Just realised, today's a special day in my blogging part of my life :') 
On the 4th March 2012, twas my first post in starting this blog and I'm so glad, I have actually stick with it... till now! :D 

So happy 2nd anniversary to enjoyin le lyfe~! 

Hip hip hooray!!

Ta for now! :) xoxo

WAKAWAKAWAKA. Uni officially starts today :'( byebye holidays.... I will miss you very much :P but I think I have enough of fun anyways, time to get serious and work hard this semester ay! :) Don't think I'll be blogging much either (aka everyday like I did during the holidays)..... but I'll definitely drop by when I get any tinny weeny chance to do so! :D 

Ta for now! :)

Love,

Velene

It’s really time I change. for a better me.

I’m getting older, and I've wasted too much time caring for people who don’t care for me. I spent too much time hating people who hate me when I should’ve been spending time loving people who love me. I've spent too much time being afraid and letting my trust and pride issues get the best of me and control my life. I just want to be happy and make my loved ones happy. If you don’t hear from me it might be because you judged me or brought negativity into my life. I only have time for positive things and love. I want to really change my life around and it’s time that I do it... for my own good.
Afterall, 2014 is a year of change, and it’s time that I begin making these changes.

"If you love something, let it go, if it comes back, it was always yours."

I don’t know how to feel about this cliché quote. How does anybody have the right to say “if you love something, let it go”? It makes no sense to me. If you love someone, you should be there for them. Down to ride, through thick and thin, fire and ice. Making their happiness, wellness, and wholeness your own. If you love someone and they treat you like shit - you let them go. And if they come back, you spit in their face and tell them you refuse to settle for someone that treats you with no respect. As much as love between two people can be so pure and special, nothing is more special than the love that you have within yourself.

Confession: 2 am.

I'm not going to tell you I miss you.

But.

I do.