I left the party early and called it a night due to the fact that I lacked enthusiasm and had a really bad vibe. I think just being around people has triggered some kind of emotional state making me feel sad, as if I don’t belong. The worst thing was that whilst I was on the way back home I felt like crying and all I could think about was what has happened to me this year.. How much it has impacted me. I feel like at this exact moment in my life everything is out of my control zone and I can’t do anything to change or fix anything, like I am glued to this path that confuses me and frustrates me. I feel alone yet when I am around people I tend to isolate myself and close myself from the world. I didn’t use to be like this, it didn't use to be like this but so much has happened all at once.. I want to just explode with anger and hurt! I just hope... 2016 will be good to me...