Been missing someone a lot lately... he has been on my mind like 24/7, even the songs in my iPod playlist somehow relates back to what happened between us. I do admit though for countless times that I wanted to just text him a "I miss you" text but I ended up deleting every letter I typed... because it hit me why is it impossible for us to get back together anymore and more importantly, what made me step back in the beginning.
They say time heals everything. Why isn't it healing for me? Why am I still dwelling on him? Why is he still on my mind? Is it because that he always unpredictably and unexpectedly start a conversation out of nowhere with me and I realised how much I missed him? Why can't I let go? Why is there still a tiny piece of me still believing that there's a chance we will meet one day and start anew and afresh again? Maybe it's the promise he gave. Maybe it's also why my mum who too have joined in the loop, encourages me to wait. Just maybe because of all the little bitsy reasons out there, they add up to develop to such a great effect, even time itself cannot beat.

I wish I had someone to look over me. I wish I had a guardian angel. Someone who would take care of me, comfort me when I’m sad, hold me when I need it, and just someone who would be there for me. Someone that knows me inside and out, someone who know me better than myself.