I’m so tired..... all the time.
I could sleep through a whole entire day and probably another one if I didn’t have things to do. It’s exhausting being awake. It’s constantly exhausting trying to focus on what people are saying but no matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me and that’s probably the worst part. Because I can’t even explain myself to others around me. Or even to myself. It feels as if my head is barely above water and it terrifies me. Because I don’t know what I’ll do when I finally lose this fight. Who I will hurt. Who I will destroy, simply because I can. I hate the cold heartless side of me. She’s a fucking bitch who doesn’t care about the repercussions of the things she does. She’s a monster. And she is me.
I could sleep through a whole entire day and probably another one if I didn’t have things to do. It’s exhausting being awake. It’s constantly exhausting trying to focus on what people are saying but no matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me and that’s probably the worst part. Because I can’t even explain myself to others around me. Or even to myself. It feels as if my head is barely above water and it terrifies me. Because I don’t know what I’ll do when I finally lose this fight. Who I will hurt. Who I will destroy, simply because I can. I hate the cold heartless side of me. She’s a fucking bitch who doesn’t care about the repercussions of the things she does. She’s a monster. And she is me.
Welcome to the deep dark corners of my mind that I could never speak out loud.
