I thought I’d get better when things got better last month. But if anything I’m suffocating more now. I don’t know who I am anymore. Like who I truly am. In front of people I pretend to be fine, happy. But reality is I cry at least three times a day alone. I just want to stop drowning, to stop feeling this all the time and not just short term. I don’t want to be surrounded by people, yet I don’t want to be alone either. I don’t trust anyone and I don’t even know who’s really there for me and who I can really rely on. I just want to escape myself.
