When you’re young, everything seems to change so fast. One day you’re in love the next day you’re out. One small mistake can ruin a friendship forever. Money can change a person. How no one values virginity or purity of something anymore, and now they’re quick to lose it.

I realise now that love is hard to find, well rather it’s hard to keep. Since things are constantly changing, so are feelings. I realised who you’re dating now, or think could be the one, is possibly not the one. I just feel like “what was I thinking” I’m way too young to know someone is the one. How would I know someone is “the one” when I can’t even think of what I want to be. How could I be worrying about love when my life isn’t even where I want it to be.

I wish I was the person I used to be. I feel lost, like I lost myself chasing after something that was supposed to come naturally. I wish I was strong and careless like I used to be. Happy with myself. Now I’m just lost and unhappy. I wish I could be happy again.The happy that comes naturally.

Love how distant I’ve become to social media (compared to how I used to be, at least.) I remember back then I’d have the urge to post about unnecessary moments in my life such as petty little problems or just things that not everyone needed to know, as well as feeling the need to know what was going on in other people’s lives… but I don’t get that urge any more.

Seems to be some weird correlation with the amount of time spent on social networking and how happy I am with life. And as of currently, life is super good :) Love life’s good, family’s good, friends are good, work’s good, and for once, I feel like I’m living life for myself and not with the intention of having something to prove to others.

It would be great if I could migrate from social media completely, but that day probably won’t come for awhile.