I really miss the feeling.... of having someone always wanting to hang out with you. Someone always wanting to talk to you. Not even, just feeling like I’m special or really important to someone is enough right now. I want to feel like I’m not always taken for granted, I just want to be first priority for once. No competition. I just want to know what it’s like to have someone defend me when others are talking shit about me to them instead of going along with it or even joke around about it with the shit talker. No. They don’t even have to defend me, just not go along with it at least, even if it's a friend saying it because shouldn’t me being the significant other matter more? Just need that someone I can talk to and know that they’ll always be there for me no matter what time it is or where they are. Instead of making me feel like a pest they don’t want to or have the time to deal with. I miss having someone who will reassure me when I have these insecurities instead of making me feel worse, crazy, stupid or unappreciative. Sometimes I just need a simple reassurance. I miss having someone go out of their way for me whenever they can instead of making me feel clingy and annoying when I do it. There's two in a relationship, not one or three. But then again I’m the one that’s always wrong hey. Guess I’m the idiot.
