It’s weird to think that right now, while I have sleepy eyes and weary thoughts, some people are wide awake, on the other side of the world. People are probably bustling around, grabbing a fresh cup of coffee or hurrying to their work or enjoying the sun; while I’m here, lying on my bed. 
And right here, right now, it isn’t quite lonely anymore. 
Life doesn't seem that bad. Just because it’s dark now doesn't mean the light is gone. Just like how the sun still exists even though it’s late at night and the moon is my only comfort. On the other side of the world, my tomorrow is their today; and that, for some reason, gives me comfort too - their yesterday is my today and life goes on.

You were never mine. You weren't mine to begin with and not mine to end with.

Resisting the urge to talk to you, knowing how much heartache that could possibly bring if I do so..

I would say that I am proud of myself for resisting the urge to talk to you, but that wouldn't exactly be the truth. I’m left feeling a confusing mix of relief and disappointment. I know that I made the more responsible, rational, and self-respectful choice. But I can’t help but feel as though I've missed out on an important opportunity. An opportunity for what? I have no idea. 

You know that feeling of your heart dropping when you find out that your loved one has been trying to hide something from you? Yeah, not the greatest feeling in the world. It might not mean shit to you, but it sure means a hell lot to me. So save your sugar-coated bullshits for someone else. Come at me with one hundred percent honesty. The naked truth is always better than the best dressed lie. 

You can have it all.

You just can't have it all at once.

"Unexpected" breakups.

You know, those relationships you see that you would never thought would tear apart?
I have seen and admired so many cute couples and it’s quite shocking knowing that more than half of them aren't together anymore. I always think to myself “Oh my, they’re so cute!” or “They’re going to last forever for sure.” I would think that nothing can stop these two inseparable people. I guess, nothing good lasts forever… No matter how good you think it is at the time. Especially love. Love changes its mind all the time. It’s just so damn unexpected. 

All the partying, trying to be popular and not doing your homework in highschool isn't going to help you with your future. 
Five years of school is tiring, but the results will be worth it. 
If there’s anything I could change about my highschool periods, it would be not procrastinating as much. 
Work hard, play later. 
Hard work and determination won’t go unnoticed, I promise.

So many flaws and so many criticism.

I have flaws, I am aware of that. I hate it when people point them out like I don’t already know. I have many of them actually. I am flawed from the outside. I've accepted the things I don’t like about myself, and the things I would do to change. I've accepted who I am. And by doing that, I am seeing in me now, the things you swore you could never see yourself, something you wouldn't be able to see, because you are just distracted and deceived by the flaws that carry on me.

"Sex isn't a big deal"

Actually.

It is.

I fail to understand those who say it isn’t. I really believe it is.

If you believe it isn’t… I’d conclude you’re (a) very lucky or (b) finding yourself in monotonous sexual encounters, producing the same result. Which is cool. Very cool.

It’s not so much people’s decision to sleep around that baffles me. (I've been in enough environments to not flinch every time I find out someone sleeps around) It’s more the claim that sex is just a regular “pass time”.

I don’t criticise this mentality, I am just genuinely intrigued. Coming from a kind place in my heart. I want to learn.

As we get older, (not just because a few years have been added onto our age) we (should) start seeing sex in a different light.

You may find yourself thinking twice, three times, four times before engaging in it. You may start to feel different emotions during sex. You may begin to have different thoughts afterwards. You may begin to look at sexual partners differently. Begin to feel a tiny little butterfly in your stomach if you bump into them in town. You may begin to tweak your sex stories to your friends. Or reduce the number of "friends" you DO tell. What once, in your early teens, was easy to dismiss, becomes a thought that lingers around for longer.

Grow up a little bit? Evolve? Does sex now really still feel how it did when you first did it?

Life will test you when, while being sexually active, you finally fall so deeply in love with someone who wishes to stay celibate.

Then you start weighing the pros and cons of each.

Trying to establish whether your love or your sex life deserves to suffer.

Even more stressful when your desire for each is so great.

PS. I know this is a topic I rarely touch/rant on but this is a random ramble, I guess. Writing as I think so nothing is lost..

Happy Daddy's Day!

Dear Daddy (eventhough I know you won't be reading this :P nevertheless...),

Daddy, I know you're really strict on me because you want me to have a good future by having a stable career and someone worthy enough to take care of me till I'm old. Eventhough I may act like I'm not listening when you nag, I actually take your words to heart and thankyou for always protecting and defending me when other people say hurtful stuffs about/to me...

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, HAPPY DADDY'S DAY DADDY!
Thankyou for everything you did for me and I'm eternally grateful!♥

I really do not like finding things out from other people or on my own. I trusted you with your words but I should have figured from your actions that you were lying. It’s sad how I actually “let it go” like you said. Hah, thanks for being like the rest of the shithead boys that I have met. 
Whateverrr, it’s my fault anyways for putting my guard down and trusting you. There’s nothing else to do but accept it and move on. (LINK)

20 facts about me!

So there's this "20 Facts About Me" challenge going on around Instagram and I've been tagged by 2 people and I was like why not, let's do it, it's simple... NEK MINNIT. Oh em gee it's so hard to think about 20 things haha XD Got there eventually!

Click LINK to see :)

Here are the 20 facts if you wanna read and can't be bother to click the link haha X)

*In no particular order*

1) I love food #foodielyfe
2) I love taiwanese and korean dramas #dramas4lyfe
3) My first favourite girl band is SHE and first favourite boy band is Fahrenheit飞轮海!
4) I blush easily *tomato cheeks*
5) I love reading.
6) My blog is my diary aka I love to write #foreverblogging
7) I talk a lot once you get to know me
8) I started playing piano since I was 6
9) I love classical music
10) I love/hate my height
11) I tend to overthink everything
12) I sometimes care too much
13) I am a really emotional person, especially during sad movies and funerals.
14) If you think you're the procrastination queen, think again! Because I'm probably worse than you.
15) I was born and raised as a Buddhist but I went to a Christian primary and highschool. So ya, I’m Buddhist but I do believe in God.
16) I'm blessed to be surrounded by so many supportive friends
17) I’m one of those people who will do anything to put a smile on someones face, just because I love to see someone happy.
18) I was a keyboardist in a rock band back in primary school.
19) I have never wore retainer or braces before.
20) .... is my age!! :D

Hope you have fun reading haha! :) xx