Happiness is a choice.

Nowadays, I just can’t seem to get my thoughts down on paper. My mind is on constant over-drive, teetering back and forth between emotions. It’s been quite a while that I last wrote something I can say I was proud of.

I learned something crucial about writing so far: happiness is the most difficult emotion to express. Seriously.

In the past, depression/sadness/vent/guilt were always the catalyst of all my writing. In the midst of misery and anguish, somehow the words seemed to flow in streams of recherché, refined and defined emotions so unbearably painful that an ocean full of words tumble onto paper like a huge destructible wave. Writing was a way to escape the turbulence and confusion, a way to sort out feelings and manipulate them in a way that satisfied me. And up to that point, writing had been satisfactory.

But now… I’m too happy for words. Don’t get me wrong though, I have my sad days. Sometimes they come more often than completely not. But this time around, I don’t need to write to escape the sadness.. I prefer escaping into him. He becomes the happy world I can only dream of writing about.
Happiness becomes an all together incommunicable thing, expressed only by experience.

Had an awesome day today spent with Nicole :)
To see what we did, CLICK ME!
Here's a brief run-through of what happened!

- hairdye adventure! Click THIS to see my updated hair look/colour haha... I used Liese hair dye in marshmallow brown, it comes out lighter than what I had originally, woohoo! Good to experience lighter shades haha X) And honestly, my hair feel softer than ever after washing those dyes out haha!
- korean lunch from Arirang at Carousel food court
- our dnms during lunch
- bubbleteas from utopia
- "Maleficent" movie sesh hehe :) got popcorns and maltesers cos they're great combos!! The movie is soooo gooooooood! Gotta love the bond between Maleficent and Aurora... so heartwarming! If you haven't watch, go do so! It's insane if you miss it! :P
- While we were walking around the shopping centre, a random guy started walking towards our way, purposely/deliberately (heck had no idea) "ignored" Nicole and started swaying towards me (Nicole thought we know each other, but I don't even know him aka never seen him before. ever.) and he just opened his arms wide, and said "Can I get a hug?"... it was so awkward and random :P
Well that's pretty much it of our adventure together today, went to temple by train, was meant to get there at 5pm, but ended up getting there around 5:50ish haha... oopsie daisie, but I wasn't the latest one though haha XD
Ta for now! Feel accomplished that I wrote a summary post... yays! Haven't done this kind of post in yonks! Hope youse enjoyed reading what was my day like :)

Catcha all next time lovelies... and stay tune with my upcoming posts... and special announcement ;)

Love,
Velene xoxo

There’s so much I want to tell you, yet I leave so many words unsaid. The question of how long will I be able to fight back the urge of talking to you before this feeling eats me up alive has always crossed my mind. Honestly, there’s really no telling how long it will take for me to completely forget about you, or if I’m even able to forget about you. 
I can only continue as I am now, silenced by the pain.

Confession of the day: I have always found it hard to let go...

... especially if it's someone who I have grown comfortable with. 
I’m not the type of person who can forget about someone within just a week or two, there’s also never really a time limit for how long it will take me for me to completely move on from someone. 
So when people ask me “why are you still stuck on him?” I really don’t have an answer for it － depending on the relationship we shared, it might take me more or less time to get over it.

PS. As you can see in this post, I tagged it with "confession" - recently created this label, so feel free to check it out :) PEACE xx

Confession of the day: If we talk a lot, I'll start liking you.

Just talking to me everyday will do so much, a lot much than you ever think.
You’ll eventually become my daily routine. I get to learn more about you as I listen to you talk about how your day is, how you’re feeling, and how you really are. Just knowing almost every detail about you will bring me closer to you.
It will however, become hard for me to not like you, if I admire the person you actually are behind your appearance.

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GAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH. Exam tomorrow.. Hopefully the paper is do-able so I can do it justice haha X)

Is there such thing as fate?

Do YOU believe that fate does somewhat exist? 

That there’s a guidebook telling you what’s going to happen in every little aspect of your life? 

I used to believe that fate does exist in some way. I did believe that if you were to meet someone special and end up lasting with them, then it’s fate that brought you together.....

But when it comes down to logic, it’s all about your decision-making that determines where your life heads. 

If you for example, missed your bus because you chose to sleep in and that caused you to meet someone along the way, would you call that fate or would you just consider that a coincidence? 

Does fate run along with your choice-making OR is it just your choices that make up how you live your life? 

Parent's Unconditional Love.

Personally, I don’t approve of divorces when there’s a child/children involved in the situation. 
To be honest, if I’m ever in the state where I cannot possibly stand being under the same roof as my husband, I still wouldn't divorce him. 
Why? 
Because I’d hate to put my kids through pain. I’d hate to see them grow up without a father. Or a mother. I’d hate to see them all grown up with the vulnerability and fearfulness of falling in love and finding that “right” person. I don’t want to give them the idea that love doesn't last forever.. because despite the love that possibly have already died between two parents, the love between the kids and parents will always be unconditional....
And if it comes down to the point where you have to choose between your happiness and your own kids, which one would you choose??
Exactly. 

Don’t worry about relationships right now.

Why? Y-O-U are still, well young... you can’t go into a relationship expecting a fairytale ending out of it at this age. 
Spend more of your time on school/uni/college, on your future and your family. There’s nothing more attractive than ambition, and once you have that, you wouldn't need to worry about not having someone who will be dying to start a relationship with you.

Today was not a good day for me... >.<
You just never know what is gonna happen next... let alone, next second...
Sprained my right ankle.. as u can see (or not see) on my instagram post
Legitly happened within a split second, one second I was normal and the next second, hjdsabkbfuz and off to hospital I went...
I can't even bear any weight on my right leg cos it fucking hurts when I try to do so :S
So grateful though that I only sprained (soft tissue injury) and not like broken a bone... that'd be disastrous!!
And luckily, my friends were around me before my parents came, ya, I was shaking like nonstop, never. again. Worst experience ever. I think it was just the combo of shock, pain, numb and what is gonna happen :3
Hopefully I make a quick recovery tho! Or else it'll be a pain in the ass to limp to exam arghhh :/
WHY.

YOU know what gets me?

When someone makes a 'joke' or a comment on something that’s actually one of my insecurities and they don’t realise it. Yeah, I usually never say anything but damn, shit hurts. Especially when I have to try to go along with them while I’m slowly dying on the inside. People need to be more sensitive, if you notice something negative about a person, you don’t have to point it out to the whole world. Words can do some serious damage and just because something is funny to you, it doesn't mean everyone else will appreciate your “sense of humor”.

"Do you ever want to slap yourself in the face because you know you should be doing something productive but instead you choose to sit in front of a laptop for hours on end doing shit that has no beneficial impact on your life and this just happens day after day after day and still you refuse to accept the fact that you have a problem?"

When I text someone who has their phone with them all the time, and I know for a fact they’re always checking it, yet they take forever to respond back. It makes no sense. What are you always checking then, the weather?
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I rarely relate my instagram post on here :P But man, legitly, for once, I WAS STOKED on how many likes I got in this picture I posted yesterday.... :P I've never got a gazillion likes/notifications before... this is all rather new..
If you haven't see, click HERE.

Confession of the day: I know I act like I hate you...

The truth is I could never hate you. I'm just so mad things turned out to be this way.