It really sucks when you completely open yourself up to another person, where you let them break through the wall you've worked so hard to construct. You share all your past, your mistakes, your dreams with them, hoping for them to be a part of your future. And maybe they have done the same with you. Maybe the two of you have thought the same about each other. Maybe their words reached out to you and made you think that you guys really would last forever. But the harsh reality is feelings are only temporary, the beginnings are always the greatest but the ending, you can never expect. Once you open yourself up to someone, you’re giving them a part of you, a part for them to take along once they leave and a part that will leave you incomplete, broken. And that’s what always gets me, I’ve given away too much of myself to get back.

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PS. I am heading to holiday soon hence I won't be blogging for the next 2 weeks :) Keep in touch with me on INSTAGRAM :) I will posting my getaway summary (as usual haha) afterwards!

Stay safe and happy everyone!

Love y'all!
- Velene xoxo

I wonder sometimes..

Do the people who come in-between others' relationships feel some kind of accomplishment for ruining someone elses' relationship/happiness? 
I've always wondered, is that why they choose to keep on doing what they, and everyone else knows it wrong other than stepping back and respecting anothers' relationship?
Shit, I don’t know. I have no respect for you if you have the nerve to pull some grimy shit like that. Just saying~

Everyone is selfish.

We all want something/someone to ourselves. No one else can have it but you. It’s such a humane thing to do for you to benefit from something that you don’t want someone else to. So before you tell someone else that they’re selfish for whatever reason - think to yourself, “Would you feel the same way if you were in their situation?"

The "I miss you" feeling.

Ever get those feelings where all you can think about is that one person that makes you smile, continuously? The feeling of what they are doing. How they are doing. And where are they — all without you? You despise the feeling because, you always wonder if they’re missing you, the way you are missing them.

If I were to tell you something, don’t go around telling other people what I've told you. If I wanted others to know, I would've told them myself. Part of me letting you know what others don’t know is I trust you, don’t fuck up our trust by making me regret ever trusting you in the first place. And just know that, trust doesn't come easy. Once it’s gone, you might as well kiss it goodbye because it’s not coming back.

Do you ever just see the first sentence of a text message and just think “oh fuck no I do not have time for this shit”?

Do you ever have those moments where you realise how spectacular you are? Like it’s totally out of the blue, and it’s not about being pompous or egotistical. You just realise that you are an amazing human being, and there’s nothing wrong with believing that. Self-love is such a nice feeling.

I swear people get annoying when they’re constantly trying to talk to you, especially when I’m not even in the mood to chat. It’s not that I’m ignoring you, it’s just that a little personal space would be nice once in awhile. 
Give me some room to breathe before I suffocate.

My life has always been a struggle between different decisions. My mind never seems to agree with my heart on the usual hard to handle situations such as family, friends, etc.  Sometimes I’m just lost or rather confused, because I worry too much about the possible outcomes of every situation, when life itself is unknown to us, unpredictable you could say. Between the battle of mind and heart, I don’t want to be misguided. Yet I can’t help but to let my feelings lead the way instead of logic, which is known to fail me in the end.

"Girls expect too much from guys."

I got to admit, it's do damn true. Not all guys are able to dance, sing or play an instrument and yet, we girls think that that every guy can. And when a guy can’t tick off our criteria sheet, we don’t really take notice of them. Some girls just need to have a reality check - not everyone can be perfect. There’s definitely no such thing as a "dream" guy. No guy is going to be dead-set perfect in your eyes so why bother hunting for one and ignoring all the rest? Why searching for a guy that doesn’t exist? Due to high expectations, we overlook an average guy when in fact, that guy could’ve been the best thing that may have happened to you. 

I feel like... I am the last person someone would want to be in a relationship with.

I am so messy when it comes to dealing with my emotions, and I often leave people second guessing about how I actually feel. I get attached too fast, too easily, and I always fuck things up when they’re perfectly fine. On somedays, it’s hard for me to handle myself. Let alone having to worry about someone else. 
Relationships aren’t for me, maybe I’m just one of those people who’s meant to be single forever and raise 50 cats alone LOL.