I wish my eyes were like a camera.

If they were like a camera, I would be able to take pictures of everything from my very first breath to present day in my life. Everything I've been through, all the mistakes I've made, lessons learnt and so on. I'd store all these pictures in my head and record my life. Then I’d be able to look at my life from an external perspective. And last but not least, before I die, I would rewind my whole life from the beginning to the end, replaying my whole life in my head before my last breath.

Fading away.....

Doesn’t it hurt when the conversations with your friends die? Whether it’s best friends, good friends, or just people you hang out with, they just tend to disappear from your life and you have no idea why. It hurts to see the people you love become just a memory no matter how good the times you had together.... everything just fades away.

I want to be like a child again.

I want to be secured again, to be fearless and full of confidence, to not be stressed over constantly trying to get the highest grades, to not be full of regrets, full of pain, I want to go back to feeling that happiness by just watching my favorite cartoon and colouring in my colouring book and not have to worry about what some low life bitches thinks of me nor cry over some douche.

Being able to find someone you click with so naturally is the best feeling ever. You feel like you’ve been best friends for your whole life, it feels like you’re coming home. You’re so comfortable with them. Maybe that’s what a SOULMATE is. Not someone who shares every single thing in common with you, but someone who feels like home.

I think the worse thing you could ever hear from a friend is them telling you that they feel like they are not a good enough friend to you when they have done so much for you.. They don’t see what you see in them, their strong spirit and their kind heart. It hurts to hear they feel worthless and a waste of space and nothing you say or do will make them see or change the way they think.

There is a point where you can’t communicate any longer with another person because their head is so far up their butt they can’t see their own self-righteousness or hear anything you have to say. Sad.

Alohaaa everybody! I'm baack from Taiwan, here's the post I wrote on facebook :)

"I am missing Taiwan already :') 這段旅程遇到了好多人事物 也學了好多東西! Went solo travel on the last day and I realised: 

(a) I'm free to adventure as I please, and it feels awesome (yes it's awesome too when travelling in a group), there is no need to compromise when travelling alone. Travelling alone gave me the choices of travelling to where I want, when and however I want to – all with a liberating degree of indulgence; and (b) gained a deep understanding of the destinations I’ve visited. I felt like I feel more immersed in my surroundings. I noticed the unique quirks, and subtle character that truly makes a place what it is. And and and and!! Got to meet 炎亞綸 Aaron Yan in real life and shook his hands omg!🙈 Transit-ing in KL right now and will be back in Perth soon. 就快回到快節奏的生活 是時候從夢中醒來了 為下一次的旅程而努力 加油😂 Will be editing travel vlogs and be uploading them on youtube when I go back!"

Can't believed the past 17 days had gone so fast! 

And also from fb:

"Did some reflecting over the trip and decided to write them down. I only see the end but often neglect the process. There is much to be experienced even if the end isn't ideal. I will stop giving up before even trying. I guess sometimes it's the journey that counts. Work on things within my capacity and not worry about what is beyond my control. Know that at least I tried. (How hard should I try; I've yet to figure out) Maybe life doesn't have to be a struggle. Accept that some things are not meant to be. Letting go. 旅行的心情 - 因為生活太匆忙 總是只能在旅行的時候才能放慢腳步慢慢觀察眼前的人事物 然後認識不一樣的自己 也許想法會改變 也許會對事情改觀 我也在這次的旅程中找到新的想法。"

I have learnt A LOT while travelling, all in - the conference and post camp itself.

Anyways,  I shall leave it here for now, gotta go back and start editing my travel vlogs :) 

I'll be back posting regularly from now on too :)

Love,

Velene xoxo

I’ll be 22 soon.

Looking back, 21 was a real big deal. I fought so much. I grew up a lot. It felt like a mid-life crisis. I pushed so much people away.

And what more special this year is that I'm spending it with no mega celebration, currently in Taiwan for a Buddhist camp (for those who don't know - follow me on my snapchat for most current updates)!

Snapchat - @veleneeee

I'm vlogging during my travels here, so keep your eyes peel for upcoming series on my YouTube channel :) x

PS. I will get back to answering all your questions when I come back :)

PPS. I will be back blogging regularly when I come back too hehe :) x

Love,
Velene xoxo

It’s important to make people see you the way you see you. I know I’m not perfect, but I want to be original.

When we fail, we might be tempted to think that we have wasted our time and thus regret it. But the fact that you have done something is much better than doing nothing.

A reminder to be present today. You aren’t where you were last year and you’re not where you’re going to be next year. Trust yourself in this moment to take yourself where you need to be.

A reminder to be present today. You aren’t where you were last year and you’re not where you’re going to be next year. Trust yourself in this moment to take yourself where you need to be.

You will find peace with whatever is tormenting you right now. Soon it will become a part of your past and only that.

Like a year ago today, I would not have imagined myself where I am and valuing the people that I do and that is so comforting to know that next year I will have learned and grown even more.

When we fail, we might be tempted to think that we have wasted our time and thus regret it. But the fact that you have done something is much better than doing nothing.

"I heard things about you."

Okay just because you heard shit doesn't always mean it’s true. It could and could not be true. You don’t know if people just made it up to make me look bad or twisted words around to the story. So before you start judging me from what you heard from someone else , you should learn to not always believe what you heard.

Everyone has a different story.

All the people that you've known well throughout your life or someone who just walked past today, has an inside life story.
I might be the one who smiles often, the one who looks so carefree and happy but.. I'm not what I seem on the inside. I have horrible days where my life is just fcked up, I have those moments that only I can see and feel; and the funny thing is that no one knows.
So I wonder if other people out there are disgusing themself; looking completely different to how you actually feel inside.
Afterall, everyone has a different inside story, you just dont know what it is :L

When I see 11:11 on the clock, it’s not like I wish that everything will be okay in an instant or I wish I could find the fastest way to be successful. I know it’s a slow and long process. I don’t even exactly wish for things to be back how it started, it’s just a flood of longing that I can’t seem to get into words within those few moments whenever I have to make that wish. It’s too much feelings to untangle. Maybe that’s why nothing happens no matter how many times I've caught that time.