I never thought it would be me....

I never thought it would be me.
Crying every night.
I never thought it would be me.
Not caring whether I lived or died.
I never thought it would be me.
Smiling even though I just want to cry.
I never thought it would be me.
Caring what others thought of me.
I never thought it would be me.
That when i looked in the mirror I am disgusted at myself.
I never thought it would be me.
Hoping it all would end.
I just… Never thought it would be me…