The "Falling" Stage.

When you meet someone, they become part of your daily routine. You talk on a daily basis, get to know each other. You start to miss them a little more everyday. Unsure feelings, are you starting to like them? You start developing more feelings for them, you simply just fall hoping they’d catch you too.

What if?

The thing about "what if" is that that’s all it is. A thought, a wish, a dream, a hope, thing that gets you through the day until you can lay in bed and just think, “what if.”

"what if…" anything and everything follows after that. Maybe it’s about your looks, the way you act, how you wish you could be more confident. Maybe it’s about how you wish that everything would just be better and easier.

These what if-s…they give you hope that someday it’ll get better. That everything will just lift the weight off your shoulders. But what if that weight could be lifted by yourself? YOU have the power within yourself to change how everything is. That seems weird coming from someone you don’t even know, and I know that you can’t make someone put down the bottle, leave the person they’re with, whatever it is.

But you can take care of yourself as much as you can. Sometimes we get so caught up in the fullness of our lives that we kinda forget to take care of ourselves. Maybe that means just sitting alone for 15 minutes and breathing. It could maybe perhaps to watch your favorite show and have a good laugh. For me, it’s having a cup of tea, play piano and just stop thinking. Or maybe you can always sleep it off.

For me, I keep hoping that everything will get better in time, I have hope for relationship and people. I have hope. Somewhere down the line, I tell myself to keep hope and that I need to take care of my life, and that if it doesn't work out, then that’s okay.

What if we took care of ourselves for a change?
What if we use some of that energy we spend on wishing for change to heal our own wounds?
What if we loved ourselves more?
What if tonight you find some inner peace that was long gone?

What if....?

It is not a question to be asked.
It’s about having hopes on things that we’re about to give up but we won’t.

Like I said...

Everything I write. Everything I say. Everything I post. Is a part of my story. It’s a part of me. So either you get to know me, or just shut the fuck up before you judge me. You don’t know my life and what I've been through. What gives you a right to judge the life I've been through? I've been kicked, hurt, beatened to the core. Your judgement can’t hurt a single bone in my body. When you've stepped a day in my shoes, saw my whole life story in the flash of your eyes, felt all my pain, learned my secrets, know me inside and out; that’s when I’ll truly be affected by your judgement. Other than that, you don’t know a thing about who I truly am. Don’t judge me by my appearance or on what you've heard. It could be as fake as the person who told you. You’ll just be blinded and deceived in the end.

PS. Happy October everybody! And for those coffee lovers out there, happy international coffee day! :)

PPS. Due to an overflow of requests, I have finally created a foodie adventure account on Instagram.. follow me if you are keen to come on this journey of food hunting with me!
IG: @melon.foodie

There are certain types of people, I know these people exist because I was one of them. We want what we can’t get, we chase and chase.

When we finally get what we want, we no longer want it, we get bored, tired. And look for another.

We’ll be forever chasing while what we really need is right under our noses.

For you see, the secret isn’t about finding the perfect person, but being able to be content and commit to one.

To follow my heart or my brain?
(LINK for people who want to read *ps in chinese*)

Meaningful convos > Flirty convos

Flirty and light-hearted conversations are fun at times, but those who actually talk about legit and meaningful stuff, that’s the people who I’m more attracted to.
People who just compliment you and tease you non-stop are those who flirt with everyone they can get their hands on. And that’s not exactly a good impression because you’re just one of the 100 others he/she flirts with.
Therefore people who know what they’re saying and actually talk about worthwhile things regardless of how small or boring it is, are the ones who are keepers. 

There is a difference between "fishing for compliments"... and being "dead set honest".

Believe it or not but sometimes, when I say I look ugly or disgusting, I mean it. No, I’m not expecting you to say "Oh no you’re not!" or anything along those lines. I’m not even expecting a positive response from you. What I’m saying is what I truly think, so don’t assume that when I say I look or feel like shit, that I’m just “fishing for compliments.” There’s a difference. Fishing for compliments is when you continuously say you look like shit when everybody knows that you know that you don’t. Being honest on the other hand is when you occasionally say you look like shit, when in fact, you do. 

Isn’t it amazing how many words you can use to explain the feeling of lost, sadness, depression, despair?
Yet I can only think of one word to describe the euphoria of love.

Love.

Slowly losing passion for everything.

All hopes, dreams, and expectations gone. 
Just like that I wondered where am I really going in life.