Like I said...

Everything I write. Everything I say. Everything I post. Is a part of my story. It’s a part of me. So either you get to know me, or just shut the fuck up before you judge me. You don’t know my life and what I've been through. What gives you a right to judge the life I've been through? I've been kicked, hurt, beatened to the core. Your judgement can’t hurt a single bone in my body. When you've stepped a day in my shoes, saw my whole life story in the flash of your eyes, felt all my pain, learned my secrets, know me inside and out; that’s when I’ll truly be affected by your judgement. Other than that, you don’t know a thing about who I truly am. Don’t judge me by my appearance or on what you've heard. It could be as fake as the person who told you. You’ll just be blinded and deceived in the end.

PS. Happy October everybody! And for those coffee lovers out there, happy international coffee day! :)

PPS. Due to an overflow of requests, I have finally created a foodie adventure account on Instagram.. follow me if you are keen to come on this journey of food hunting with me!
IG: @melon.foodie

There are certain types of people, I know these people exist because I was one of them. We want what we can’t get, we chase and chase.

When we finally get what we want, we no longer want it, we get bored, tired. And look for another.

We’ll be forever chasing while what we really need is right under our noses.

For you see, the secret isn’t about finding the perfect person, but being able to be content and commit to one.

To follow my heart or my brain?
(LINK for people who want to read *ps in chinese*)

Meaningful convos > Flirty convos

Flirty and light-hearted conversations are fun at times, but those who actually talk about legit and meaningful stuff, that’s the people who I’m more attracted to.
People who just compliment you and tease you non-stop are those who flirt with everyone they can get their hands on. And that’s not exactly a good impression because you’re just one of the 100 others he/she flirts with.
Therefore people who know what they’re saying and actually talk about worthwhile things regardless of how small or boring it is, are the ones who are keepers. 

There is a difference between "fishing for compliments"... and being "dead set honest".

Believe it or not but sometimes, when I say I look ugly or disgusting, I mean it. No, I’m not expecting you to say "Oh no you’re not!" or anything along those lines. I’m not even expecting a positive response from you. What I’m saying is what I truly think, so don’t assume that when I say I look or feel like shit, that I’m just “fishing for compliments.” There’s a difference. Fishing for compliments is when you continuously say you look like shit when everybody knows that you know that you don’t. Being honest on the other hand is when you occasionally say you look like shit, when in fact, you do. 

Isn’t it amazing how many words you can use to explain the feeling of lost, sadness, depression, despair?
Yet I can only think of one word to describe the euphoria of love.

Love.

Slowly losing passion for everything.

All hopes, dreams, and expectations gone. 
Just like that I wondered where am I really going in life.

Sometimes my own thoughts break my heart.

And then I have to remind myself to lift my chin up and breathe in the world around me; breathe it in so that the hopelessness doesn’t swallow me complete and whole.

It is a game of constant push and pull. My negativity breaks me down, and my inability to accept my fate, keeps me going.

I do wonder sometimes though, if my thoughts would ever bleed and poison into my world.

Breaking point...

Is it bad that I feel the urge to break down and cry about every hour or so? I can just be having a normal conversation and then a person says one word that triggers something in my ever-roaming mind. No, it isn’t hormones... I just have so much in my head, so much going on that I can’t keep up and I’m honestly breaking inside every single day.... I need guidance.... I need closure... I've been too strong for so long... I feel like I'm losing the strength to continue anymore....