WHY HELLO DERE.. ;)

FINALLY had a catchup with Viv today! :)

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I thought I should casually insert a mini confession here without being too vague? It was brought up today by Viv and it's actually a really interesting theory/question asked...

"Through endless attempts, it really does end up with a conclusion that you can't be forgotten. So I've made up my mind that you'll still remain in my heart, but the weight has changed. And forgetting someone doesn't mean to never think of him, but thinking of him with a calm heart. 
忘记一个人，并非不再想起，而是偶尔想起，心中却不再有波澜。"

On forgetting someone.. It’s pretty easy to believe that you’re fine for a while. Time passes and you heal and you start remembering what it’s like to not have to live with the guilt, the pressure and all the rest of the shit and you’re actually free. Then normal life steps in like a bitch and reminds you how great that person was and how comfortable that relationship had become and it feels like your life is falling apart. It’s like they died because of how abruptly their absence hits you. It sucks that you had been such a big part of my life for so long and I’m not going to sit here and pretend like everything about that relationship suck-ed, because the truth is, it was great when you wanted it to be.

A tip for youse all: Forgetting someone can’t be done when they've added a huge impact to your life. Never say forgive and forget, because it’s not as easy as it sounds. Forgetting someone takes a lot of phases. And come to think of it, I’m not even in the first phase yet.  It takes WILL and DETERMINATION. It works like any other thing in the world. If you’re determined to do it, you’d push through… but I've come to thinking and thought.... what if the reason why you can’t forget him/her is because deep inside you don’t really want to? Well that’s messed up. I’m fucking confused now. I guess the scariest thing about distance is that you don't know whether they'll miss you or forget you.

I can’t deny that I still love you and want you... but I’ll lie if I have to.

Love,
Velene xoxo

I’m jealous of people who have cute laughs and fast metabolisms and nice teeth and good hair and can just make any outfit look good and are great at sports and do well academically because none of that is me.

Growing up.... too soon?

We've all thought about wanting to grow up when we were small. We all wanted to grow up immediately because living the life of an adult sounded awesome. Now that I actually am reaching quite soon to the age of twenty (FML), it’s quite scary. All the carefree-ness of a kid/teen is practically moving its way to the past. Now it’s the real deal. And yet I feel like, I've regretted not living my life to the fullest as a kid/teen who just wants to have fun. It’s true what they say - cherish every moment as a kid/teen. You’d be surprised how much you want to run back to it.

I can’t go for guys who are well-known. Like if they’re extremely hot and has a bunch of girls after them already, then they’re not my type. I’d be too busy with worrying about when a better girl will show up to steal him away than to actually worry about our relationship. I wouldn't consider myself an over the top jealous person, but still, jealousy does get to me. 

Which one do you choose?

The person you love unconditionally,
but they may never feel the same.

OR

The person who unconditionally loves you,
but you may never feel the same.

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And I'm here thinking, how about just “that one person”? That’s what I want.

“People need to be encouraged. People need to be reminded of how wonderful they are. People need to be believed in - told that they are brave and smart and capable of accomplishing all the dreams they dream and more. Remind each other of this.” - Stacey Jean Speer 

“There is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these lovable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else.” - Chuck Klosterman

“Let me put it this way, if Paris and New York were men, Paris would be more like the romantic guy that opens the door for you before you get into a car, you know, that guy who is so charming and perfect in every way, the safe bet, he almost seems too perfect… 
New York however, would be the guy that just comes and sweeps you off your feet, that guy who takes your breath away, literally…The one you meet and almost instantly fall in love with, the one who is very difficult to trust but even more difficult to forget, that is New York, so let me ask you something, who would you take, Paris or New York?” - Andy Torres

Happy Valentine Day people!

In my opinion, Valentine's Day is really just about spoiling your loved one. It's not that big of a deal; because it should be everyday that you tell how much you love someone or surprise them with lil gifts. But then again, it is somewhat a special day as it is the only day of the year that represents LOVE. (eventhough it should be everyday) 
So happpy valentines to all you couples out there; hope you guys have a great day with each other. And to all the people that's single too; who said we needed a guy/girl to make us happy on valentines? ;)