Does anyone else ever like…. partially dissociate? Like there’s a little part of you that is just not there but the rest of you is like “come back to the body, buddy, we have stuff to do”?

Note to self: it’s okay to find yourself thinking about someone late at night and smiling or crying or feeling everything or nothing as thoughts of that person overwhelm you. It’s okay to wonder, even if that person might not be thinking about you (anymore).

WHY RUSH?

Why are people trying to get a guy/girl?
Why are people rushing into getting a relationship?
I mean, what’s the point?
If you’re ready to be with someone, then you’re ready. You can’t force time and make things go faster. You can’t just like someone for a day and then immediately want to be with them the next. It doesn’t work like that. Be patient. Your time will come. Fuck those who pressure you into dating someone. Fuck those who judge you for being single. You’re not single because no one wants you - you’re single because you’re waiting for the right one. Don’t rush. It’s not going to get you anywhere in the end. 

If you are not nice, then you’re considered a bitch and a snob. 
But if you’re too nice, then you’re considered fake. I don’t get it. 

You know that feeling, when you truly just love and care for someone. To the point where no matter all the mistakes they’ve made or all the faults they’ve been through, you don’t care about any of those. You don’t look for faults, answers or mistakes. Instead, you fight those mistakes and you accept it from them. Accepting all their flaws and them as a person, knowing that no matter what happens, you’ll always look past it, loving them as of right now for simply who they are. 

Long distance relationships.

Don't know what got me tonight, but mind got me thinking about writing something regarding to LDR's, so here goes, a scope of what it's like to be in a long distance relationship.

You spend a whole lot of time alone. Not alone as in miserably lonely, but handling your day to day activities with the absence of your lover. there are times where you just wish that it was easier for them to be around you, to hold you when you’re cold, and having the luxury of falling asleep in their arms then waking up to see their blunt beauty in the morning. Trust becomes a huge factor in the success or failure of the relationship because all you really have is the unspoken promises of commitment and fidelity.
Before you decide to pursue a relationship with someone far away, there is a transparent contract that you sign, saying that you know the consequences and you fully accept what follows. When they can’t physically be there, you can’t blame them and say that they’re never around. Circumstances divide you two apart and it’s up to both of the individuals to work past that, not ignore it. You end up depending on technology to converse with your significant other. A simple text, phone call or webcam sessions start to mean so much more to you.
Then there are times where it becomes difficult because you want to hold them when they’re having a bad day, to show up at their front door steps and surprising them, or just going out on a lunch date from time to time. So you find alternative ways to show them how much you care. Any moment with them is sacred because it becomes something you to yearn for, so much that it aches. It’s most definitely not easy, but when you fall in love, everything is worth it. And every single time you look into their eyes, it’s like the first time all over again. You learn to be great on your own, but even better when they’re by your side. It’s where independence and dependency is in perfect harmony.

I rarely, rarely, RARELY ever cry in front of people because whenever I do, it hits like a freaking tsunami. 

My worst weakness is that I feel everything too much and I can’t help being so sensitive.


It is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so very deeply.

I have learned that you wouldn't be able to live your life if you were not focus on yourself.

You can’t base your life on what people think of you, their beliefs, what they want, their characteristics and personalities. You can’t live your own life focusing on everyone else’s opinions.

Sometimes you shouldn't put your happiness aside just because you want to make someone else happy. And sometimes you should do what you want to do. Because sometimes, it’s not about everyone else.

Sometimes it’s about you. Focus on yourself first. Life isn’t a competition, or a race. Life is more than that.

The goal shouldn't be, who will make it to the finish line first.

The real goal should be to enjoy the path that will take you there.