We drifted. I tried. You didn’t. I’m tired. Goodbye.

You make lists in your head about what you want in a lover, like brown hair and a sweet voice. A sharp mind and a soft heart, a sense of humour that actually makes you laugh like you mean it. This and that. And it’s all bullshit. Because people aren’t lists. And I’ve always wanted to be the person who made someone realise that. I want to come across someone with a list in their head that is nothing like the person I am, and I want to show them that they didn’t even know what they were looking for. People who think they know what they want are fooling themselves.
Nobody really knows what they want.
Not until it’s right in front of them.

There’s some weird false idea that when you’re working towards being confident or happy or loving yourself, you won’t have bad days. You will, and they will be horrible. You will feel like shit and nothing will go right. Those days don’t take away from all your progress or set the tone for your entire journey. Experience those days. It’s okay. Your journey is still valid.

Being busy is a blessing. That’s all I want in 2016. To be consistently busy. Get shit done.

2015 was the worst year of my life considering how wrecked I was emotionally and physically but because of it I’m such a better person now. So really, I’m thankful.

We aren’t expected by the universe to do anything besides exist. We have pressures and expectations of society ingrained in our brains and deep into our consciousness, however, it truly doesn’t matter if you just exist and do not “accomplish” worldly goals. Even if you obtain a tonne of success or fame or money, it doesn’t matter. A person who literally did nothing but sat in their room is (spiritually) valued the same as a Rihanna or Elvis. I don’t like making these type of posts but I don’t like seeing people beat themselves up because they are comparing themselves to people living fast lives, living on the edge or who have wealth.

I always like people I’ll never have a chance with because I’m competitive as fuck and I love a challenge but also because I've become so used to not being liked back that I get weird-ed out when people tell me they like me.

Have you ever met someone so terrible that it makes you a better person like you learn from mistakes that you haven’t even made purely from observing them, thankyou for being so obnoxiously terrible, please don’t ever interact with me again.

I've always wanted someone who cared about me.. whether you are my friend, boyfriend, or someone special.

I like it when you ask me if I did my homework. When you tell me to do my homework. When I say no, and you force me. Having silly arguments back and forth. Letting me know that you care about how I’m doing. I like how you push me forward, instead of bringing me backwards.

I love that feeling, when you know someone wants you to have a bright future. When you know they want you to do well. It’s cute. It’s the little things, the little things that are the big things when you look back.