The darkest fear of mine is being afraid of the dark.

No, I’m not afraid of lights getting turned off or the sky darkening. I’m more afraid of what the dark has to offer than darkness itself. What I fear is a quiet room filled with complete emptiness, unwanted memories, broken thoughts and lingering feelings. 
It’s like a never ending battle, the dark is the predictor and I’m the pray. 
Every night, I lay there, awaiting in my bed as the dark devours me. I wait for my mind to transform into a maze, with no place to escape and nowhere to hide. 
And when this all takes place, there’s nothing else I can possibly do, except to close my eyes and wish for a brighter day.

Having a unique name is interesting because it allows me not to trust people who claim to know me yet can’t spell my name or pronounce it.

As much as I like talking to you, I've been feeling like I’m becoming a bother. Maybe I’ll just take a step back, give you some room to breathe and see if you notice my disappearance.

I think uni changed my perspective on a lot of things. If you knew me back in highschool and met me now, you would not even think we were the same person. But I honestly don’t think I've changed much at all.
Maybe it was because I was caught up in being someone I thought people expected me to be. You go to school with the same people for years and after awhile you become something they just know you by. You don’t change. If you do, it becomes a big ordeal and people question it.
I was molded into a person I thought I should be simply because I wanted to please people. I’m so glad I’m over that though. 

Can't believed I dreamed about you last night.... it all felt so real. I woke up, disappointed that it was just a figment of my imagination and disappointed in myself for actually missing you.

Gahh really do not know why I've been thinking about you so much lately T.T
It has been ages since we last talked... why is this feeling of uneasiness coming back all of a sudden??

Sometimes I get the urge to talk to you but I hold back because I remember that you are a different person now. I look at the sky often and I'm hoping that from wherever you are, you're looking at it too.

Whenever I see a hot guy, I get so sad knowing that I’ll probably just let him pass me by. Since I won’t have the guts to talk to him, and the worst part about it is the slight chance of me ever running into him again. I hate being so shy.

Consider yourself special if I stay up just to talk to you. Sleep is like the most important thing on my list, and if I’m willing to lose it for you, you must mean something to me.

Regardless of how attractive you are, if you’re a flirt, you’re off limits to me. I wouldn't mind being your friend, but there’s no way I would allow myself to fall for you. I know better than to develop feelings for someone who will only hurt me in the long run.

Not many people can take my breath away, but you don't even have to try.