There is something very important about being open; to be able to share your heart with another human being, to pour out your honest thoughts - unsifted, unedited - is part of how we process and grow. Don’t keep it all to yourself. The good or the bad. It’s good to open up without fear or pressure about how you find the words to say it aloud. There is something deeply connecting about being heard in complete authenticity.

If you haven't seen from my snapchat updates, my voice has finally come back!!! It feels amazing to talk again after like what, 9 days of muteness since I came back from my holidays, life was hard I tell ya XD haha. Though I can talk now, I still have my cold to recover from, hopefully *fingers crossed* all will be well before weekend for work!

Today’s mental health reminder: a relapse, a sudden series of attacks, a string of awful days, (or whatever your step back may be) does not decrease your value.
Take your time, do some self care, reflect on the progress that you have made.
You are strong; one step back is nothing when you look at the journey you have already made.

I used to get so sad when I realised just how much everything has changed. The dynamic with all of my friendships have definitely shifted, and I used to wallow in self-pity that nothing’s ever going to go back to how it used to be and I couldn’t do anything about it.

… but I’ve realised now that, that’s just life. I can’t be angry that things are different because that’s how life happens. It’s immature and childish to play victim when all we’re trying to do is grow up.
I want so bad for everyone to succeed, and if I get to play a role in helping someone achieve their dreams by offering my friendship, then that makes me happy.
If someone I love needs to grow on their own to achieve their goals and forgets me on the way, then yea, I’ll be a little sad, but I’ll still be happy for them because in the end, they succeeded.

I’m the kind of friend that’ll always be there for you even if we haven’t spoken in months. If you come to me when you feel like you’re carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders, I will listen and I will comfort you.

If you drop by just to say hi and ask how life’s going, I will reciprocate with just as much love and affection. Other than that, I will quietly appreciate and admire how differently everyone’s growing.

Within the past year, I’ve learned that, at this age especially, you cannot expect for everyone to stay in your life the same way they’ve been for the past couple of years. This is the age where we need to be selfish to figure ourselves out… what we want to do, where we want to be, and how we want to achieve it.
Whether or not everyone stays for the ride, I’m just gonna do me.

You might not be in control of what happens in your life, but you are in control of how you will react to the hardships that are thrown at you. If you’re not content with your life, change it, better it, keep it moving. Shit does happen, but it’s not an excuse to use every time something bad occurs. Only you have the ability to transform your life.

I wish my eyes were like a camera.

If they were like a camera, I would be able to take pictures of everything from my very first breath to present day in my life. Everything I've been through, all the mistakes I've made, lessons learnt and so on. I'd store all these pictures in my head and record my life. Then I’d be able to look at my life from an external perspective. And last but not least, before I die, I would rewind my whole life from the beginning to the end, replaying my whole life in my head before my last breath.

Fading away.....

Doesn’t it hurt when the conversations with your friends die? Whether it’s best friends, good friends, or just people you hang out with, they just tend to disappear from your life and you have no idea why. It hurts to see the people you love become just a memory no matter how good the times you had together.... everything just fades away.

I want to be like a child again.

I want to be secured again, to be fearless and full of confidence, to not be stressed over constantly trying to get the highest grades, to not be full of regrets, full of pain, I want to go back to feeling that happiness by just watching my favorite cartoon and colouring in my colouring book and not have to worry about what some low life bitches thinks of me nor cry over some douche.

Being able to find someone you click with so naturally is the best feeling ever. You feel like you’ve been best friends for your whole life, it feels like you’re coming home. You’re so comfortable with them. Maybe that’s what a SOULMATE is. Not someone who shares every single thing in common with you, but someone who feels like home.

I think the worse thing you could ever hear from a friend is them telling you that they feel like they are not a good enough friend to you when they have done so much for you.. They don’t see what you see in them, their strong spirit and their kind heart. It hurts to hear they feel worthless and a waste of space and nothing you say or do will make them see or change the way they think.