To be civil with someone you don’t like is one thing, but to pretend to like them and be buddy buddy with them when you’re talking sh*t behind their back just doesn’t make any sense to me………..

Like why go through all that trouble??

The older I get the more I realise

• Friendship is not something that is common. Genuine friendship is rare.
• Everybody wants something and never ask themselves what they bring to the table
• The energy you give the world is the energy you receive
• Time alone is not a bad thing
• Love is a gift and is not something you can demand or force
• Being comfortable should be your main priority.

Some days are harder for me than others but I’m trying. Some days I can find the happiness, some days I feel like I’m forcing it. I can’t tell anymore. Some days I tell myself I’ll be ok. Some days I tell myself what a horrible person I am. Some days I cry and some days I can’t. There are too many days but I’m trying. I’m trying my best but some days it’s not enough.

Have you ever not liked someone in a romantic way and everything is cool and all then they do something small like touch your shoulder or say something funny and you just kind of freeze and think....

oh

oh no.

Have you ever wondered if everyone is going through the same thing as you? Or if they’ve already been through it or maybe they haven’t yet but they will soon. Because the truth is, we’ve all been in that place. We may call it different names, we may think we’re the only ones but we’re not. But I just hope for the next person who’s going through it, has someone there to help them along the way, because I don’t think I’d want someone else to go through the things like me and other people have been through. Sometimes some people deserve better, and the people who hurt them deserve what’s coming. 

People say a lot can change in a year… And holy crap it's true. It really has. Everything has changed in my life. When I say everything… it means everything. I didn’t realise it until someone asked me what was new in my life and it finally hit me. Since then, my feels have been strong and what sucks is that I don’t even have anyone to vent to it about… anymore. I can’t say that I miss how everything was… but there is a lot that I miss.

But what's crazy is that… although everything is different now, things are so so good. Not gonna go into much detail because I don’t want to jinx it.

Crazy how things work out.

Take a shower, wash off the day. Drink a glass of water. Make the room dark. Lie down and close your eyes. Notice the silence. Notice your heart. Still beating. Still fighting. You made it, after all. You made it, another day. And you can make it one more. You’re doing just fine.

I don’t think people realise how much depression shapes who you become.
You might get through it.
It might get better, but you’ll never be the person
you were before it happened.

It will get better, I don't know who I'll be when it does.

As I get older the more I appreciate straight forward people. Like if you’re mad at me I will respect you if you tell me. I don’t understand adults that would rather stomp their feet and use passive aggressive behavior to communicate. Life does not have to be this difficult fam.

Sunday reminder that you can get through whatever life throws at you this week. You’re stronger than you think and you’re capable of so much.