Sometimes things happen and you realise you can never go back to being the exact same person you were before. No matter how hard you try, you just can't go back, because, your perceptions have changed. You learn to get used to the change, but you're never the same again. Smiling does not mean the skies are clear, but remember that a smile can make a difference and go a long way.

I felt like I shouldn't talk with you anymore, barging in your life like that, with me and my problems. I'm sorry. I know you really do care about me. I really appreciate that. But now is just not the time.
PS. If you are ever reading this, I'm truly sorry that you found out here instead of me telling you directly. It is really the time that I let you go and not disturb your life anymore..

I ended up crying on the side of a road and a random person asked me if I was okay.
I didn’t know what to say and they just gave me a hug and said, “I’m sad too but it’s okay, everything gets better” and that was by far the nicest thing a stranger has ever done for me.

Do you ever feel like you’re waiting for something that isn’t ever going to happen? Like, you’re basing all your decisions on "if’s" and "maybe’s", and uncertainty?

And sometimes, no matter how much you want to get up and leave, there's something that draws you back, to continue waiting. Perhaps it’s all the time you've already spent on something, and to lose that suddenly, for nothing, seems kind of pointless. But, why continue wasting time?

Thought/rant of the day~

I get so disgusted when someone laughs at a disabled kid or a kid who has down-syndrome or whatnot. I cringe when I see someone who is actually heartless enough to imitate the poor kid’s actions and light-heartedly laugh at their disabilities. No words can describe how revolted and hurt I feel knowing that there are people out there who just look past these unfortunate souls and just take them as clowns. Eurggh. 

The problem with me is that no matter how bad I want to talk to you, I'll never make the first move because I have too much pride and I’m stubborn as fuck.

Had a dnm talk with one of my baes recently about this, she is the first person to give me a totally different advice on how to approach this X situation, from her advices, they definitely reinforced my views and certain beliefs, for example, what passed was the past. Continuing to live every day to the fullest as it's a blessing to be alive in this world x

PS. Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there!
PPS. I did a review on Laneige Power Essential Skin Refiner on my beauty blog!
PPPS. I too did a snack review of Tokyo Banana Original!

Have fun reading! ;)

HAPPY MUMMY DAY!

My mummy has a default grumpy face 24/7 and it's really rare to see her smile.

Everyone thinks I’m indestructible.

The girl who never flinches. The girl who always has a smile on. The girl who’s gone through nothing. The girl who has no scars. I am not going to lie, sometimes the way you act or look can be deceiving. I don’t want to live behind a wall of laughter and smiles anymore. I want people to understand me, I want people to understand how hard it is to be me, and still be expected to be happy. This is why I write on here. To let out all the venom that has poisoned me and away from the real world.
It’s sad how everyone else just fall apart, yet I don’t know why I am still keeping it all together?

No one can understand you thoroughly.

Even if you were to spill out everything or expose them to a certain situation by explaining it in complete detail. It is hard for one to feel the exact pain of another or try to understand how they might be feeling when you have never really took a step in their shoes. Sure, you might have been in the same situation someone else before, but everyone experiences different feelings because we’re all incomparable people with different backgrounds. And that’s what makes each one of us unique, our feelings and experiences are what differ us from one another.