I like it when guys try to figure me out.

I’m the type where I won’t tell you much about me unless, you ask. I have a tendency of being mysterious. I get a lot of curious questions, but I don’t answer quickly enough. It's cute when guys wonder. Personally, I think it’s attractive that they are putting effort to get to know me. Remember it’s the willingness that counts :)

I don't know whether I should accept someone now....

Because... next year my study load will be full on.... nor do I know whether I'm capable to handle both academic and love on my plate next year... such hard decision >.<

Moreover, my study has always been my first priority. But when someone I care about the most pops in the question, my mind becomes a pool of fuddly puddle.

There’s something about him that I can’t quite figure out, but that something is the something that’s making me stay. The uncertainty of us acts like a motivator. It pushes me to be with him. It makes me want to be with him. I don’t even know if we’d be good together, but the amazing thing about that is I want to find out. I want to know how it would feel to be a part of his world.

If I like you,

I like you. And only you. No, I will not get bored of you. No, I will not lie to you. No, I will not lose feelings for you. No, I will not hurt you like someone from the past did. No, I won’t leave you for someone else. I understand these things happened before, but that doesn't mean it’ll happen with me. If you spend most of our relationship being scared, it’ll end because you pushed me too far away. If things change, we’ll deal with it then, but until then, I’m all yours.

If he doesn't trust you with other guys, chances are its what he does when he’s with other girls.

You entered my dream the other night…

It all felt so real. I woke up, disappointed that it was just a figment of my imagination and disappointed in myself for actually missing you.

Another world.

I've always try. I try my best to be optimistic, but at the same time I tend to contradict my emotions. When I’m around people, I seem pretty stable. However, when I’m alone, there seems to be multiple collisions in my mind.

I know I always try. I smile when I’m around people. I help people out when they need me. I’ll cheer you up when you’re sad and I’ll protect you at your worst. I’ll smile at you while passing by you, even if I don’t know who you are. I seem happy but when I’m alone... it’s a whole different world, and my true colors begin to seep out.

By the way, I'm back at home :) Hence, more regular posts will be constructed along your way!

Love,
Velene xoxo

It really sucks when you completely open yourself up to another person, where you let them break through the wall you've worked so hard to construct. You share all your past, your mistakes, your dreams with them, hoping for them to be a part of your future. And maybe they have done the same with you. Maybe the two of you have thought the same about each other. Maybe their words reached out to you and made you think that you guys really would last forever. But the harsh reality is feelings are only temporary, the beginnings are always the greatest but the ending, you can never expect. Once you open yourself up to someone, you’re giving them a part of you, a part for them to take along once they leave and a part that will leave you incomplete, broken. And that’s what always gets me, I’ve given away too much of myself to get back.

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PS. I am heading to holiday soon hence I won't be blogging for the next 2 weeks :) Keep in touch with me on INSTAGRAM :) I will posting my getaway summary (as usual haha) afterwards!

Stay safe and happy everyone!

Love y'all!
- Velene xoxo

I wonder sometimes..

Do the people who come in-between others' relationships feel some kind of accomplishment for ruining someone elses' relationship/happiness? 
I've always wondered, is that why they choose to keep on doing what they, and everyone else knows it wrong other than stepping back and respecting anothers' relationship?
Shit, I don’t know. I have no respect for you if you have the nerve to pull some grimy shit like that. Just saying~

Everyone is selfish.

We all want something/someone to ourselves. No one else can have it but you. It’s such a humane thing to do for you to benefit from something that you don’t want someone else to. So before you tell someone else that they’re selfish for whatever reason - think to yourself, “Would you feel the same way if you were in their situation?"