2:22am

I’m learning to be grateful for situations that may not seem ideal given the circumstances. Despite the drawbacks, finding gratitude in what seemed to be shitty situations has really opened up my mind to see blessings that I would’ve disregarded had I continued to ruminate on negative thoughts.

If I ever stop talking to you and remove you from my life, I hope you understand how hard it was for me. I have a bad habit of holding onto the little bit of good in people, no matter how bad they clearly are for me. So if I don’t feck with you anymore, it’s because you pushed me past my limits.

I’m at a point in my life where I’m realising that no matter how much I love you and how long I’ve known you for, if we can’t have a meaningful conversation together, then there’s no depth in the relationship and no growth. I don’t have time for shallow friendships and relationships anymore, where I have to constantly feel like I’m exuding so much of my energy for nothing.

I feel like when people ask for advice, there’s a 99% chance that they already know what they want.. they just need that extra push to build up their courage.

It’s important that you keep your feelings and your self worth in different places because when feelings get hurt it shouldn’t change how you view yourself.

In life, there will be many things that will take you by surprise. It’s like you think you’re heading towards your destination but end up somewhere least expected. When that happens, you owe it to yourself to be selfish and take control of your happiness…no matter how hard it is or how much it hurts.

- but fake happiness is still the worst sadness.

hearing something that kills you inside but having to act like you don't care.

Just tired.

Tired of being constantly not ok.

Tired of smiling to people even though I feel like crying myself to exhaustion.

Tired of lying that I’m fine.

Tired of people lying to me.

Tired of people pretending that they care.

Tired of feeling so much and nothing at the same time.

Just tired.