I just have this persistent feeling of “I’m not doing enough” combined with “I don’t have the energy to do anything” and it just really fecking sucks.

I think people underestimate the strength it takes to remain strong and optimistic when everything is tearing you down.

I’m at a point in my life where I just don’t care anymore so if you stress me out I’m just not gonna deal with you anymore.

Sometimes I have too many emotions and sometimes I have none at all but I always feel like I'm drowning.

shoutout to my favourite coping mechanism,

isolation.

dead inside

Do you ever notice yourself getting bad again, like, you know you’re not doing work that needs to be done, you know you’re not cleaning, you know you’re not taking care of yourself… you know all the things you need to do to start trying to feel better. But you just can’t. And you’re left feeling like sh*t because you thought you were getting better but here we are.

kind of there

One of the worst moments in life is probably when you’re in a room full of people and you look around and see them all talking and laughing and all of sudden you feel so sad and lonely that you can even feel a physical pain in your chest because you realise that they all belong to someone and they all have someone who belongs to them and you don’t, you’re just kind of there.

“6 months from now I will be in a different situation.”

Speak it into existence.

If only my heart were as cold as I pretend it is, maybe I could get over this.