Sometimes it is a lot easier to write out how you feel than to tell someone about it.

The older you get, the more you understand how your conscience works. The biggest and only critic lives in your perception of people's perception of you rather than people's perception of you.

When I say I am ugly.

I’m serious.
At times, don’t get me wrong, I think I’m a bit decent looking. But overall, I think I’m so unattractive. I’m not fishing for compliments. They’re so many stunning girls, I can’t even compare. Whatever they do, whether it’s making silly faces, pooping, anything, they’re still pretty while doing it. Fuck. I wish I was more appealing. Honestly. 

Can something last forever?

Is it really possible for someone’s feelings to always stay the same for someone else? Can the things you want to stay permanent, stay the way it is forever? Can we promise something that involves “forever” and not break it? Or is the word “forever” just a term to describe what you want but probably won’t end up getting? 

Today I met him at a little bookshop.

He had the most glistening beautiful brown eyes. A man with intellectual thoughts and wisdom. He was well mannered, yet unexpected. What was it that made him stand out? Was it the accidental fate of meeting him at a bookshop? Or was it the fact that he enjoyed reading?
It was both.

"It's okay."

I have the tendency to always say this when someone apologises to me. Even when it’s not okay, I still say it. Why? Because I don’t want to push the situation further and further. I don’t want to make it worse than it has to be. But you know what? It’s not okay. What you did, it’s not okay and I’m not gonna pretend that it is anymore. I know that sometimes it’s best to forgive and forget, but sometimes maybe it’s best to just forget.

My friend and I were talking about how we’re both depressed and she was saying how the only real distraction and ultimately the only thing that makes anything worthwhile is harbouring intimate and honest relationships not just with lovers who but with friends and she’s right. Feeling and experiencing love and all the things it entails, is the only distraction that makes living feel worthwhile.

Before I die, I want to finish what I have started.

I want to live until I am fully satisfied and tired of living. I want to finish university and be successful. I want to live to see my first child in my arms. I want to cry. I want to smile. I want to hurt. I want to feel. I want to love and hate. I want to feel all of me before I am gone. I want to tell everyone what I have always wanted to tell them. I want to write letters. I want to explore. I want to live life to the fullest. I want to help other people. I want to be the light that would make them open their eyes to positivity. 
I want to make a difference. I want to leave a legacy.

Be there for yourself.

Because at the end of the day, you’re always going to be alone. You have nothing but yourself. The people that say they’ll always be there for you when you need them, isn't always going to be there. And the ones who say they will never hurt you, probably will. That’s exactly why you should never depend or rely on anyone else but yourself. You have no one but you. You’re on your own.