My friend and I were talking about how we’re both depressed and she was saying how the only real distraction and ultimately the only thing that makes anything worthwhile is harbouring intimate and honest relationships not just with lovers who but with friends and she’s right. Feeling and experiencing love and all the things it entails, is the only distraction that makes living feel worthwhile.

Before I die, I want to finish what I have started.

I want to live until I am fully satisfied and tired of living. I want to finish university and be successful. I want to live to see my first child in my arms. I want to cry. I want to smile. I want to hurt. I want to feel. I want to love and hate. I want to feel all of me before I am gone. I want to tell everyone what I have always wanted to tell them. I want to write letters. I want to explore. I want to live life to the fullest. I want to help other people. I want to be the light that would make them open their eyes to positivity. 
I want to make a difference. I want to leave a legacy.

Be there for yourself.

Because at the end of the day, you’re always going to be alone. You have nothing but yourself. The people that say they’ll always be there for you when you need them, isn't always going to be there. And the ones who say they will never hurt you, probably will. That’s exactly why you should never depend or rely on anyone else but yourself. You have no one but you. You’re on your own.

1st of November!

When something is over, it can never start again.

When something is broken, you can never put back the pieces together.

Life is not always the way you want it to be.

When you know that something hurts you so much, just stop. We know that it hurts a lot but you must learn to let it go.

Don't push yourself too hard, because we all know that in every ending there's such a thing that we call.. a "NEW BEGINNING".

Afterstage.

Lately I feel so unmotivated.

• Idiotic.
• Depressed.
• Tired.
• Frustrated.
• Restless.
• Uninspired.
• And disappointed.

I know that this isn't one of the brightest lists, but nothing leaves me content anymore. I guess this is just a phase, but I feel useless, as though the world ran out of things and for me to have fun like I need to do rebellious things.

The truth? I miss everything. I miss him, I miss her, I miss them, I miss that, I miss this and now I just miss the fact everything used to be so carefree.

Just when things were getting better, the worst was waiting around the corner.
Although I still have my true friends who have always been like my 2nd family, as selfish as this is, I still don’t feel satisfied. It’s not the fact that they don’t try to keep me positive, it’s just that the negative seems to power through.

I’m struggling and you left me when I needed you most.
Unforgivable. You were the only one I wanted to stay.

I’m looking at the sky
and I’m hoping that
from wherever you are,
you’re looking at it too.

I’m always attracted to that bad boy type and have this naive thought that I’d be the girl they would change for, but really, I know they’re up to no good.

I never thought it would be me....

I never thought it would be me.
Crying every night.
I never thought it would be me.
Not caring whether I lived or died.
I never thought it would be me.
Smiling even though I just want to cry.
I never thought it would be me.
Caring what others thought of me.
I never thought it would be me.
That when i looked in the mirror I am disgusted at myself.
I never thought it would be me.
Hoping it all would end.
I just… Never thought it would be me…

Every single person you know has something in their life and past that is probably worth collapsing to the ground in an uncontrollably sobbing heap over, so be nice to each other and tell good jokes.