1st of November!

When something is over, it can never start again.

When something is broken, you can never put back the pieces together.

Life is not always the way you want it to be.

When you know that something hurts you so much, just stop. We know that it hurts a lot but you must learn to let it go.

Don't push yourself too hard, because we all know that in every ending there's such a thing that we call.. a "NEW BEGINNING".

Afterstage.

Lately I feel so unmotivated.

• Idiotic.
• Depressed.
• Tired.
• Frustrated.
• Restless.
• Uninspired.
• And disappointed.

I know that this isn't one of the brightest lists, but nothing leaves me content anymore. I guess this is just a phase, but I feel useless, as though the world ran out of things and for me to have fun like I need to do rebellious things.

The truth? I miss everything. I miss him, I miss her, I miss them, I miss that, I miss this and now I just miss the fact everything used to be so carefree.

Just when things were getting better, the worst was waiting around the corner.
Although I still have my true friends who have always been like my 2nd family, as selfish as this is, I still don’t feel satisfied. It’s not the fact that they don’t try to keep me positive, it’s just that the negative seems to power through.

I’m struggling and you left me when I needed you most.
Unforgivable. You were the only one I wanted to stay.

I’m looking at the sky
and I’m hoping that
from wherever you are,
you’re looking at it too.

I’m always attracted to that bad boy type and have this naive thought that I’d be the girl they would change for, but really, I know they’re up to no good.

I never thought it would be me....

I never thought it would be me.
Crying every night.
I never thought it would be me.
Not caring whether I lived or died.
I never thought it would be me.
Smiling even though I just want to cry.
I never thought it would be me.
Caring what others thought of me.
I never thought it would be me.
That when i looked in the mirror I am disgusted at myself.
I never thought it would be me.
Hoping it all would end.
I just… Never thought it would be me…

Every single person you know has something in their life and past that is probably worth collapsing to the ground in an uncontrollably sobbing heap over, so be nice to each other and tell good jokes.

Life cleansing tips:

- Delete conversations between people you no longer talk to. It is healthy to let go of the past and not letting yourself dwell on things.

- Say kind things about people you like. Say good things about yourself. Don’t speak or think about people you don’t like.

- Look in mirrors. you shouldn’t be afraid of facing yourself.

- Allow yourself time to feel and grow. Don’t be too hard on yourself for crying, you need to vent in order to move on to better times. Even rainy days work towards sunny days.

- If things don’t work out, stop forcing them. There’s no reason for you to keep working and failing if there are other places/people for you to excel and be happy.

- Running away doesn’t always solve everything. Sometimes, the reason that made you run will still be with you. Focus on freeing yourself before starting anew.

Self isolating and then getting upset when you see your friends having fun without you and using this to validate the notion that nobody really needs you or will miss you if you’re gone.

Does it bother anyone else that there are parts of your life you don’t remember? You have done and said things that you don’t even know about anymore. That means you don’t even have the right perception of yourself because you don’t even fully know who you are. However, something that you’ve forgotten about could be a prominent memory in somebody else’s mind. It trips me out.