I don’t want to be judged by others, but yet I still put myself out there. I don’t want to disappoint others, but at the same time I want to do what I want to do. I don’t want to get hurt, but yet I still want to be loved and to give love.

I’ve been so torn between a lot of things. My heart has been heavy. Still.

I’m constantly wearing this mask to hide how I really feel. It’s just easier to smile than to explain why you’re sad. It’s easier to hide your crying with hysterical laughter. But the truth of it all is that all you want is for someone to come and rescue you, but they just never show up.

It’s not hard to tell who your true friends are.

Rather than being jealous, true friendship is a manifestation of being proud and genuinely happy for each other when good things happen. True friendship flaunts selflessness; you get what you give, and that includes being there for each other during the highs and lows. True friendship is being honest and letting each other know that there’s a problem and fixing it without announcing it to the world.

“Best friends” is just a title. There’s no meaning behind it if you can’t act like one. Step outside your shoes and be more aware that your self-indulgence is a bit taxing.

In other words… your need to be the center of attention is annoying as shit and you’re a horrible friend lol, please reevaluate yourself. 

Don’t know how I expect to not be a huge disappointment to others when I’m even a huge disappointment to myself.

Wow my negative thoughts are so prevalent during the daytime that at night, I’ll have dreams so vivid about them and I’ll wake up wondering whether or not they actually happened.

I hate that feeling of needing someone because depending on someone sets you up for pain. but god, how I need someone to be there for me. right now.

When I date someone at this point in my life. I’m not dating them just to say I’m dating someone. I’m dating them with the intent to build, progress and have a romantic partnership. If somewhere along the lines it doesn’t work out, fine. But they’ll never be able to say I didn’t try to grow with them.

In 10 years, I wonder who is still going to be by my side.

I hate when people talk to you on facebook, text, etc. but when they see you in person it’s a whole different story. They walk by you like they don’t know you when you clearly saw them look at you. They can’t even say hi or anything. You can’t even talk to me in person but you can talk to me behind a computer screen?