It’s not hard to tell who your true friends are.

Rather than being jealous, true friendship is a manifestation of being proud and genuinely happy for each other when good things happen. True friendship flaunts selflessness; you get what you give, and that includes being there for each other during the highs and lows. True friendship is being honest and letting each other know that there’s a problem and fixing it without announcing it to the world.

“Best friends” is just a title. There’s no meaning behind it if you can’t act like one. Step outside your shoes and be more aware that your self-indulgence is a bit taxing.

In other words… your need to be the center of attention is annoying as shit and you’re a horrible friend lol, please reevaluate yourself. 

Don’t know how I expect to not be a huge disappointment to others when I’m even a huge disappointment to myself.

Wow my negative thoughts are so prevalent during the daytime that at night, I’ll have dreams so vivid about them and I’ll wake up wondering whether or not they actually happened.

I hate that feeling of needing someone because depending on someone sets you up for pain. but god, how I need someone to be there for me. right now.

When I date someone at this point in my life. I’m not dating them just to say I’m dating someone. I’m dating them with the intent to build, progress and have a romantic partnership. If somewhere along the lines it doesn’t work out, fine. But they’ll never be able to say I didn’t try to grow with them.

In 10 years, I wonder who is still going to be by my side.

I hate when people talk to you on facebook, text, etc. but when they see you in person it’s a whole different story. They walk by you like they don’t know you when you clearly saw them look at you. They can’t even say hi or anything. You can’t even talk to me in person but you can talk to me behind a computer screen?

Sometimes... when I think, I feel like I’m missing something.

But then I realise I am actually missing something.

I don’t understand what’s so bizarre about the concept of a girl not wanting to be in a relationship because she’d rather focus on other things. Since when did falling in love, getting married, and having kids become prerequisites for a happy life and a successful future?

To be honest, I was a very dependent person before uni. When I got to uni, I grew to the stage where I become more independent and I've been growing up to be that someone who knows how to do things on her own, and not relying on others. I mean who says I can’t be happy without it? It’s not like I don’t have healthy relationships in other areas of my life. I've got great friends and a family that cares about me.

I mean I believe that some people are meant to be together, get married, and end up having a family.
But even if that wasn't me, I’d be fine with that too.

And I hope that you’re okay. I hope that wherever you are right now underneath this vast sky, you’re doing well and you’re happy. I hope you’re finding reasons to smile, to inhale and exhale, to sleep, to wake up, and to be happy.