This afternoon.

Just went through all the blog posts I made here. It's always an interesting experience because I forget about certain things that have happened in my life eventhough its only been a few years. As I was scanning through old posts, I felt the need to re-read a couple that stood out at me. There were also some posts where I was so tempted to delete them that I felt needed to go. Ones where I was upset or probably shouldn't have blogged and shared at all... after all, from the start, I have been using this blog more as an online diary. So ya, this afternoon ended up being like a huge reflections exercise to not only see the blog evolve over the last few years but myself included.

I am tired.

• tired of feeling like I put out all the effort
• tired of being walked over
• tired of the bullshit
• tired of being useless
• tired of missing people I used to know
• tired of feeling worthless
• tired of lies
• pretending to be happy
• not being “good enough”
• everything I say is always wrong.
• I’m always the bitch.
• not trying hard enough.

... Just tired of it all.

The future is unravelling itself and the outcome is blurry but whatever it is… I am really afraid.

It’s literally the funniest thing ever when dudes ask me to hook them up with my girlfriends. I'm just like LMAO.. not in a million years!!! I love and respect my girls to death and they are too good for any dude I know. And I know my girls.. Even if I did introduce you all, I PROMISE that you’d be wasting your time because they would not be interested. So puh-lease… Dismiss yourself.

PS. New updates: I did some winter-cleaning in this blog and updated some bits and pieces. So the main ones I updated are:
- "me in a nutshell" page (LINK)
- I haven't been to tumblr and formspring for a very long time and I see all these bundles of similar questions over and over again, sorry for not replying. I have created an ask.fm account in which apparently it's a great platform to ask questions directly or anonymously.
So from now on, I will answer any questions/queries on: ask.fm/shemelon

PEACE xoxo

We all live in a world where everyone is judged by society, looks v.s. personality, and here’s the honest truth. Looks will always come before personality － in the beginning at least. It doesn't matter how great your personality is, the first thing people notice about you will be your looks and you will be judged based on the way you present yourself with your outside appearance. Let’s put it this way, if you were put into a position where you had to choose between someone with a flawless face, a gorgeous smile and a great sense of style OR someone that’s average looking, of course you would pick the person who looks better, no matter how bad of a personality they have, because personality never outshines looks at first glance. The problem with people complaining about how they always go into the wrong relationships, and they always end up hurt by “assholes” or “players” is you have to know it’s you who put yourself into those situations so there’s no one to else to blame for your mistakes. In order to not repeat the same concept, you will just have to open your eyes and look beyond someone’s looks for once, then maybe you’ll find something that will actually be worthy of your time. I’m not saying looks aren't an important quality, it is. Face it, who doesn't want to be with someone that they can show off to the whole world? But what I am saying is, we often pass up on people who have been right in front of our eyes because we never thought of giving them a chance.

PS. This is a post dedicated to one of my close girlfriends x

Love,
Velene xoxo

Before this day comes to an end, I just wanted to dedicate a lil' somethin to my parents.

Although it is my birthday today, I should not have been the star of the show.

21 years ago on this exact day, my parents joyfully brought me unto this wonderful world. And for the past 21 years they had to endure my stubborn, hard-headed, selfish, ignorant demeanor (sometimes I wonder why you guys never disowned me haha) They guided and stayed with me through all the hardships and low lows that I have faced and celebrated the highs.

Mum, thank you for never giving up on me, 21 years ago when you struggled during labour, on those days where I don't listen and when I argue back stubbornly. Thank you for telling me that I am worth everything in this world, that I should be treated like a queen, and that I should never settle for anything less. Thank you for being you, for being someone I will forever look up to.

Dad, thank you for being my role model, for teaching me what life is worth. Thank you for being my biggest fan, through the wins and the fails. Thank you for putting family first, and sacrificing everything you have so that we are happy. Thank you for always believing in me, in my potential to do whatever I wanted to do in life. Thank you for telling me to fight for what I believe in, and to stand up for myself for nothing but the very best. I will always be my "daddy's girl".

my instagram

Once again, this day shouldn't be about me, it's about my mummy and daddy.
I thank everyday that out of all the parents that I have you guys, a perfect match and a perfect plan. Cheers to 21 years of love! I really love you guys :D

Thankyou for those people who messaged me happy bday greetings, I will reply to them soon :)

Love,
Velene xoxo

It's impossible to be loved by everyone.

You can’t be loved by everyone. Why? Because of society. Sometimes you try to be nice and you try to respect everyone around you, but there are those kinds of people who put you down and tell other people that you’re just being fake and you just want something from them. Of course you get hate, it has become a normal thing in life now. You might get hate, but you also get love at the same time.

Early birthday gathering

Today I had an early birthday celebration with my pharmily! Eventhough not all could make it due to work and other reasons, but luckily there were some who came♥
We lunched at Brotzeit  in the 140 Lane Perth. Since I own another blog that dedicates to food and beauty reviews, I have posted a post there.

Check it out HERE!

Enjoy reading!

Have a lovely night y'all! :)

Love,
Velene xoxo

Do you ever wonder about people sometimes?

The ones you've touched slightly but never did they remain in your presence for a long time. I meant those you said “Hi” to when walking in the school hallways, those who went to your birthday parties when you were a kid but never again when you became a teenager, those strangers you met on the street and maybe had a random conversation with. I sometimes think about the people I used to know and talk to. I wonder how they’re doing.