Early birthday gathering

Today I had an early birthday celebration with my pharmily! Eventhough not all could make it due to work and other reasons, but luckily there were some who came♥
We lunched at Brotzeit  in the 140 Lane Perth. Since I own another blog that dedicates to food and beauty reviews, I have posted a post there.

Check it out HERE!

Enjoy reading!

Have a lovely night y'all! :)

Love,
Velene xoxo

Do you ever wonder about people sometimes?

The ones you've touched slightly but never did they remain in your presence for a long time. I meant those you said “Hi” to when walking in the school hallways, those who went to your birthday parties when you were a kid but never again when you became a teenager, those strangers you met on the street and maybe had a random conversation with. I sometimes think about the people I used to know and talk to. I wonder how they’re doing.

Final choice.

4th July 2015: Though I admit, I said goodbye to you so many times, but today is the day..  Goodbye. Again. For the final time.

Quote of the day: "There are people we can't live without, but have to let go."

The ones who are always the first to start a conversation with you, listens to your problems and even goes as far as continuing after your one word replies, be thankful of them because no one would waste time on someone they don’t care about. 

I don’t believe it when someone says looks don’t matter.

In fact, I think it’s complete bullshit. You can try to tell me otherwise and argue that from your point of view but I mean, looks do and will always matter to a certain point.

For example: have you ever heard someone say I want to get to know him/her because their personality is stunning? Probably not, because when you meet someone, the first clear impression you get of them will be their looks, since I don’t think it’s possible for anyone’s personality to be written out on their forehead.

Truth to be told, in order for you to want to get to know someone on a more intimate level, you have to be attracted to the way they look. But as time go on, it’s the way they present themselves which makes them more appealing. Such as the way they dress, talk or the way they do certain things.

And overall, personality matters the most because you can’t change your personality with your outside appearances.

Grateful.

Lately I feel really blessed to have such supportive group of friends, some friends that we haven't contact for quite a while because we each go to different pathways, but when one bumped into each other, it felt like no time has passed at all! Seeing all these people lately (that I initially thought we drifted as we head to different pathways) made me appreciate more to who I'm surrounded with :) I know for the fact that every person in my life serves a purpose. This gives me more of a reason to stay and be glad that I'm still alive :)

Not just friends-wise, I am also so super blessed for all the success this blog has been getting. I can't thankyou enough for following, sending in questions, dropping by to say hi and even just stopping by the page for a second. It's really nice of all of you and I love you guys for it.
Lately, since my birthday is approaching, most of you have been mailing me early presents.... I am damn shocked by the amount and type of kind gifts I have received. Some of the gifts I must say, are very high-end branded products... I really do hope that if you are planning to gift me, please do not over-spend, I feel really bad :( for I do not think I deserve these kinds of luxury goods, I only merely help you all in the best of my ability and wish for nothing in return.
*I will do the reviews once I have tried on them on my beauty blog, do stay in tune!*

All these blessings I've been receiving, I just realised they have been here my whole life, I just didn't take the time to see them…
Yet, I still feel like something is missing.

Monday thoughts.

"Day by day nothing changes, but when you look back everything is different."

I now truly understand what they meant by that time heals and change everything. From what was once so major back then to now, worth little or nothing.
Back then, when I missed you, I looked back on our conversations - I reminisced the good times and then I wondered what led from texting everyday to nothing.
But now.
As I casually scrolled back our old conversations, I don't feel the way I felt anymore in the past. Even just by reading few messages, I stopped, I couldn't even continue to read anymore and it's not because I felt heartbroken to read anymore but I felt sick to the stomach and wondered why I wrote and think the way I did then.
And I realised time inevitably made me grew and experiences changed me.

I am still the same me, but now more capable to know the differences between what's right for me, what is something I should never get close to and what is something that if I touch once, I should never touch it again.

A while ago, one of my friends actually pointed out to me that I don't really ask for advice or suggestion even when I actually ask for it *does that make sense? :P Let me explain~*
So that one time, I tried to ask her for her opinion/advice/suggestion, she then stated that I did not really ask her for it, as in no matter what advice she gives, I already am stuck in my own little world, with my own thoughts as I had actually made up my mind/decided what I really wanted. When she said it, I realised that is actually very true indeed, yes, eventhough in my mind, I have already made up my decision, somehow I just want someone to reassure me and my decisions.

Her words surely stroke me as we can count as very close friends and I thought that she would have told me what to do. Yet I was surprised that she could point out what others didn't, at least what I did not realise, and at the moment I told myself she was right.

She was right that I don't really take advice in application even if I ask. There are also most of you that claimed that I actually make good decisions. This seems to be a great compliment for me, it is one big compliment yet I doubt I deserve it. I don't think I deserve it as even I myself, can't really decide what I really want, and also what's best for me. Especially that feeling of uncertainty after a decision is made.

Perhaps sometimes I could be lucky enough to make a right decision for someone when they asked me to, and am sorry if I did not. Though I really do sometimes wonder why would most of you have such faith in me, saying that I make good decisions when I don't really know which direction I am actually heading to.

I have to admit, yes it's true that I am recently bothered by something. I don't think I can just run away from this, pretending like it's not happening, I have promised myself to face it with courage. I have made my decision up but I just don't have the guts to speak out.

This is really hard. This dilemma is bringing me down. I need to breathe.

I don't understand.

Sometimes I feel like I'm a retard. I mean, I can figure out situations easily in my head. I already know what I wanna say and how to say it, and I can have my emotions under control. But somewhere along the lines of putting what's in my mind out there verbally, I mess up. I say things and they sound horribly, or they can easily be misinterpreted into something I never meant. I just turn out to be an asshole because I end up hurting people.
I hurt people I never want to see hurt, because I’m incapable of saying the right things when it matters most.