Reminiscing.

It’s the one thing I absolutely hate doing. It makes me think of the good, and the bad that’s happened at one point in my life. But most of all, it makes me miss those people who once meant so much to me yet I thought didn't mean much to me anymore. I never thought I’d find myself saying this, but damn.. do I miss all the people I've lost throughout these few years. 

WADDUP EVERYONE :D

YOOOOHOOoooooooooo!

As you have/have not seen, I participated in "Amazing Race" event yesterday, held by YADWA (Young Adult Division of WA: Facebook LINK if your interested :) It was superbly fun but it was exhausted! Walked A LOT. (exercise ✓ for the day haha)
Since it was a Sunday as well, transportation-wise, we have to wait like around 15 minutes to 30 minutes haha, however it wasn't too bad. But other than that, the amazing race itself was great! And to top it off, I was teamed with really nice and funny guys :)

Can't believed that my team won it haha! :D We did all challenges! X) #teamedupwithreallysmartfellas haha #nojokes.

And I must say, dayuuum the committee members did a really brilliant job in setting out the whole challenges, but time factor did dragged on a bit cos some of the challenges were hard to complete haha! We passed ours with a lot of help too from strangers :)

If you want to see what I posted yesterday, click HERE! :)

Today is also a public holiday haha cos of the Easter. Gotta love Australia for public holidays, love how we push public holidays (if they fall in weekends), Monday shall be the holiday :D haha but this doesn't really affect me cos I'm in my midsem break anyways lol :P

And this week is my last week of my break... nooooo :( Have so much things planned for this week as well oopz haha!~ Will be out and about so much haha!

Ta for now!

Love,
Velene xoxo

You have the right to remain imperfect.

I realised that perfection was just another figment of the imagination. The sooner you realised this, the sooner you could escape it. Until then, you remained a prisoner in a prison cell created by you.
I mean I don’t have the perfect body. I may not have the looks. But I do have a heart, a mind, the brains and the thoughtfulness. 
I am just a perfect imperfection of fragments.

And as you may/may not have seen, I got a new haircut todaaay :) it had been like 2 years since I had front bangs haha..... I remembered how when I was little, I used to have front bangs all the time until I got sick of it and like persuaded my mum through countless ways to grow it into side bangs, which it worked in yr 7, so from year 7 onwards, I've had side bangs.... then on freshman year of uni, I was like damn I missed front bangs, let's do it. The only bad thing I don't like having front bangs is that it grow too fast T.T oh well #yolo We shall see how long is this front bangs are gonna do for me haha :P
Check out my picture on instagram if you haven't! (LINK)
PS. I'm legitly still stoked on how many likes I got in this PIC..... what is this blasphemy :'O *it's like the picture I've gotten the most likes for.. so far, on instagram, this year has been like "whooosh, what just happened".. like I got so many notifications/likes in like 1 minute... say whaat* (and I aint bragging :P ma friends were like "man, you should be hell happy and feel loved, like the most likes I could get on my pictures are like 30 and here you are, with more than 100 likes :/...." seriously, "feel loved" haha.... XP more like "artificial loved" *sigh*
*Update (thanks for someone who informed me :P): this PIC is stealing the spotlight, so far being the most likes D: I just died and come back on earth... lol..

Oh and yea, I'm having my midsem break now *yays*.... actually not really, it's not even a break cos there's exams after break T.T whoever says uni is freedom!!!!!!!? Oh how I missed highschool :X

Ta for now! :)

Love,
Velene xoxo

Finding a conversation between you and someone you were close to.. My mind goes through this flash-black of memories instantly, then I start to wonder whatever happened between us that led us to where we are now. Worst thing ever.

Just because I complimented you....

It does not necessarily mean I want to get into your pants, alright? It also doesn't mean that it’s an open invitation for you to start flirting, being completely up yourself or talk to me like as if we’re besties. I hate it when I say something nice to the opposite sex and then all of a sudden, they think I’m interested in them or whatever. Seriously, I compliment nearly everybody, because I think y'all deserve to feel flattered and because well, I’m just nice. 

Just think for a moment about the fact that every single person is a person.
You can talk to any of them and they will talk back and every one of them will have something different to say. They’re all as complex as you are, and you’re probably more complex than you realize. Each of them is full of their own questions and hypocrisies and delightful twists and turns. There’s a whole world hidden inside every skull.
Anyways, hello everyone :) Been very busy with uni lately thus explained my absence in blogging. Able to keep myself busy (meaning in weekends) so far successfully to avoid overthinking about stupid things, which I unrelentingly always end up to do so and regretted.
I guess I could say that I was a very technology-person/social-media-addict aka I would spend on my phone 24-7 like no jokes. But now I've detached myself with phone and with social media related apps, and in exchange, been meeting, chatting and chilling with new people :) I'm so glad I chose that... as I've been happier (I got it emphasized to me a lot from people around me hmm maybe it is in fact, true) since I don't have a gazillion changing feelings every minute or so in replying to people's messages (not that I don't like to but sometimes I really can't be bother/not feel like it). My life has been better so far (really! for those who're persistently asking/checking). I wasn't so well, you know at the first week but hey, this is life. Then I got sick for a week and a bit. (karma right there for me being a complete bitch x.x) I won't say I'm fully recovered because I'm actually not but I'm getting better, I just wish my coughing goes away, been taking rikodeine and I hate cough liquid medicine :(
To be honest though, sometimes, I get into this shitty-mood and just shut everyone off but ay, I'm still here :)
Not just that, I also no longer feel the intense desire to cling to or to reach out to that person.
I came across this quote few days ago:

"...'Dont marry an orange and expect him to turn into an apple.' If you want an orange, great. If not, put him back in the proverbial fruit bowl for someone else to enjoy and move on."

― Amy E. Spiegel, Letting Go of Perfect: Women, Expectations, and Authenticity

I shall leave youse all with the quote... before I bore you any further, here's what I've been participating lately haha: http://tap.unicefusa.org/  It's really cool! If you do have the time, you should try it out yourself! It's basically for every 10 minutes you don't touch your phone, you help to give clean water to children in need! So the longer you don't touch your phone, you get to help more! Pretty cool isn't it? :D GOGOGOGO haha~

Have a fabulous soon-to-be april week! Enjoy today as well as it's the last day of March~

Catcha all next time, whenever that may be! :)

Love,
Velene xoxo

I wrote you a letter...

.... only to conclude that I won’t be giving it to you. My heart poured out into a couple sheets of paper, that you will never receive. I without any hesitation drew flame to the past. I watched it burn centimetre by centimetre. The auburn glow grew and engulfed everything. Every untainted word in my memory inscribed unto flammable squares. The wind is going to blow it into the universe and from then on, it is going to vanish into dust. Just like our love.

By putting on a mask, I made myself into a complete bitch back then. Regretted but can't do jack shit now.
So let's pop the pills to numb it all out!!

It's already been a month and a half since it's officially over (or should I say it had been two weeks since we went back to square one as strangers), it just sucks because I’m still in the middle of getting over you. I still have feelings for you, but I’m slowly losing them. Because anything can bring those feelings back, when I hear a song that reminds me of you or see a picture. But there’s days where I feel nothing toward you, I think I’m finally over you, but I see something and realise those feelings never left. I hate this middle feeling. How long is it gonna take to get over this middle feeling?

Oh yeah, and on the point of this person (I'm getting numerous messages about him, I'm not going to (ever) leak out who he is/what's his name/where's he from etc etc [for those people who are unaware of this, if you read several of my posts recently, I kept on referring to someone as "you"], so please drop the persistent questioning in my inbox.... it's not that I aint a bitch enough to release his deets and talk about him behind his back, but I just see that there's no point of telling you guys because here is a public template and I'm pretty sure "that person" won't want his name drifting around... afterall.. we're now strangers.

Anyways..

You were just another lesson learned. You taught me what love felt like. You showed me how to hold on to it, but you also showed me how it felt to lose it. You showed me who I wanted in life, but then you also showed me who I wasn’t. You then drew a line, but you weren’t mine to begin with and not mine to end with. Looking right then and there, you were everything I wanted. Maybe because you were my first. Maybe because it was just thoughts. Then you were someone I didn’t like. You got inside my head and then you let me leave and wish I’d stay. Glancing back, I tried not to regret it and looked at it as an adventure.

Before I end, I have already settled myself to an agreement that this will be the last post ever on him. It is really the time I move on, physically and mentally. Hence, for my future posts, I will focus more on my daily personal life, and no more mentioning of him. He's now the past. 
Time to open a new chapter~

PS. I mostly update on my instagram - @veleneeee since I don't really have much time to blog here :) It's like my instagram now becomes my daily pic blog haha X) for eg. I wrote so much for a pic post just then.... link's HERE if you wanna check it out :) it briefly and vaguely described my week..

Love,
Velene

I used to think that I was just not good enough but then I realised that it wasn't it. The fact that if I was or wasn't good enough doesn't matter, because everyone has their own perspective about others; different opinions and scales. Maybe I was just not the shining star in your eyes and I guess that you just weren't mine either. You definitely caught my eye, but you just weren't meant to stay. So let me be thankful that I've met someone great like you. Even though you’re now my past, you left me a great memory and a remarkable lesson. Thanks the moments of laughter we had together.
Best of luck to both of us!

I don’t know which is worst. Not being able to press delete on somebody’s contact in your phone, or realising that there’s no point of deleting them, because you remember their number by heart.